Nerves getting the better of me over rainbow baby :(

[bex1992]

Hello ladies, hope you've all had a fantastic christmas!

Basically I am about 4 +6 with a rainbow baby after I miscarried after a blighted ovum late september. I cannot for the life of me relax or feel any way positive right now

With the first pregnancy i had very few symptoms, i had sore boobs and spotting and then my positive test came followed by a little fatigue then sadly at 10 weeks i began to bleed and i was scanned to put my mind at rest which sadly came back as a tiny sac which was confirmed as a blighted ovum a week later.. we were heartbroken. The midwife was terrible and the GP was no better i was completely crushed I cant pull my head out of my bum and have faith now

With this pregnancy i'm tired and grumpy, my boobs ache and i'm full of cold atm so cant really add anything else to my list of symptoms... I took my test out of the blue because i had that feeling (which i cant explain but sure you can relate to) since finding out i have been a nervous wreck, when i went to my GP she just booked me in for my booking appt 13th january (week early) and said that she would try and ask for an early scan.

I know this is a completely new pregnancy but i cant help but feel negative! I know the only thing that will put my mind at rest is seeing a heartbeat... i cant even describe the pain of seeing a blank space on a screen where something should be... if i saw that again i dont know what i'd do I cant discuss this with my OH atm as he has enough on his plate and dont want to stress him out further... however he's not shown any emotion whatsoever about this time round but im putting that down to the previous pregnancy and recent bad news he's had...

Has anybody else experienced similar? Or have any way to help me come down out of my tree??
xox

 

[Emily0505]

I know how you feel hun.

I had a mmc last pregnancy.

Had a bit of spotting at 8+4, went in for a scan which showed only a gestational sac and a yolk sac. Miscarried the pregnancy 11 days later at what should have been 10+1.

I've recently found out I'm pregnant again (4+6 today).

I'm trying to keep positive and I'm doing ok but I won't believe everything is ok until I've had a scan. There's no reason for me to think that there's a problem as everything seems to be going in the right direction, but then it all seemed to be going ark last time!

I'm booked in to see my gp on 8th January and I'll be asking for an early scan. If she went refer me then we'll pay for a private scan.

XX

 

[bex1992]

wow, same as me then haha 4 +6! I was just looking at early scans online, cost and when they can be done etc... I'm gonna do the same as you i think, see what my midwife says on the 13th and if she doesnt refer me for an early scan i'll pay for one
I've never been so nervous about anything, same as you everything seems okay atm just worried everytime i cough incase i harm it lol complete paranoia! Finger crossed for us both xx

 

[Holsf]

I'm 4+5 I have a son of 2 years we started trying in June and iv been pregnant 3 times which have all ended in mc twice at 4w+3d and once at 5w 2d I cannot be positive at all I feel like I'm waiting for it to happen iv had 2 periods since and iv started taking baby aspirin since bfp iv had testing done but not had the results yet but was just tested for clotting issues. I feel slightly different this time nauseous fatigue but just can't relax so know how you are feeling a different situation but same feeling so I understand. Just take each day at a time try to keep busy and pay for an early scan if they won't give you one where we are its £50 but money doesn't come into it I might even pay for 2 one at 6 then at 9 or something as I just need to know. I really hope everything works out for you xx

 

[Angelaeris]

Hi bex,

It is hard trying to put your worries to the back of your mind. I am currently 5 weeks pregnant EDD 28.08.16 and this would be our first baby, I suffered a MMC in August this year and so even though we're thrilled to be pregnant again I can't help thinking the same thing will happen.

We are just taking every day as it come and trying to have positive thoughts, we've talk about if the worst was to happen and ow we would get through it, we can't change what is to come but I'm trying at least to enjoy every symptom in the meantime.

I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months!

 

[CindyJaneX]

Sending lots of good wishes, I know it's difficult
At the moment I'm 6-7 weeks after finding out at 6 months before our babies organs hasn't formed properly and we were advised to let her go
We got told it's so rare but it's still scary, all I can say is try to keep busy if you have a hobby, and it's ok to cry and ask for a hug and some support if you need it.
I find watching stand up helps me happy shows and avoiding things like soaps.
All the best xxx