I got 2 new baby books to keep everything in, one has been taken over with Zeke things and Shaun stuck pictures in and his little feet prints that the hospital gave us etc, his wrist tag. i didnt even know he had them. Made me realise more and things actually began to sink in. Cant believe ive been acting like i have. I can finally think about it, get upset and deal with it, ive been ignoring it, and now im actually accepting it. It's one week today, and in some ways, because i pushed it so far away it feels like longer, but in others, it feels like it was only yesterday. But through it all, we have to keep going, keep smiling, for Harliegh and Romi's sake.
Shaun has been on about their names, and i just couldnt do it. but now, it seems finally ok to say Zeke was perfect in our eyes and we miss him till it hurts, and that we are looking forwards to Harleigh arriving. no more 'little miss' 'pink bump' 'her' or anythign else etc, She's Harleigh, always has been and always will be. The special little girl that will mean even more to us than she did before.
I got breakfast in bed off Romi and a HUGE and i mean HUGE teddy off Romi, so big he can sit in between its legs and it's still bigger than him lol. I got a big bunch of lillies off him too, and then the books of each of the babies. making things even more special, the letter to confirm the 4d scan came through at some point, and Shaun put it on the tray he brought breakfast up with, so i got all excited about it. it's 2 weeks today
YAY lol. i get to meet my little girl properly. I'm so excited.
So, i'm sorry if ive grumped at anyone, sorry if ive said things out of order, i feel like ive snapped at people if they tried being nice, i felt like a charity case and didnt want that, which i now know isnt what you were doing. So to those who did make comments about Zeke (the nice comments i mean
) then...Thank you. Means a lot to me, to Shaun, and your well wishes for Harleigh are very much appreciated.
Love each and every one of you, and now i'm going to shuffle off and spend some well deserved time with Romi, and talk endlessly about Harleigh, and remember all the good things about Zeke
to each and every one of you, love you all, you are truly fantastic ladies, and if it wasnt for you, your support and your kindness, i dont think i'd be here like i am today,
CHEERS CHUCK!!!
Chelster x
Shaun has been on about their names, and i just couldnt do it. but now, it seems finally ok to say Zeke was perfect in our eyes and we miss him till it hurts, and that we are looking forwards to Harleigh arriving. no more 'little miss' 'pink bump' 'her' or anythign else etc, She's Harleigh, always has been and always will be. The special little girl that will mean even more to us than she did before.
I got breakfast in bed off Romi and a HUGE and i mean HUGE teddy off Romi, so big he can sit in between its legs and it's still bigger than him lol. I got a big bunch of lillies off him too, and then the books of each of the babies. making things even more special, the letter to confirm the 4d scan came through at some point, and Shaun put it on the tray he brought breakfast up with, so i got all excited about it. it's 2 weeks today
YAY lol. i get to meet my little girl properly. I'm so excited. So, i'm sorry if ive grumped at anyone, sorry if ive said things out of order, i feel like ive snapped at people if they tried being nice, i felt like a charity case and didnt want that, which i now know isnt what you were doing. So to those who did make comments about Zeke (the nice comments i mean
) then...Thank you. Means a lot to me, to Shaun, and your well wishes for Harleigh are very much appreciated. Love each and every one of you, and now i'm going to shuffle off and spend some well deserved time with Romi, and talk endlessly about Harleigh, and remember all the good things about Zeke
to each and every one of you, love you all, you are truly fantastic ladies, and if it wasnt for you, your support and your kindness, i dont think i'd be here like i am today, CHEERS CHUCK!!!
Chelster x
