Clementine
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I've had two missed miscarriages at 10 & 11 weeks, I try to focus on the positive but I find the passing of their original due date tough to think about. My first would have been due June 2013 and my second pregnancy was twins that would have been due next week March 8th though consultant had said he would have taken me early. It's hard to believe the 9months has passed again. I've convinced myself and others that I'm keeping strong but I feel that the pause button has been pressed. I'm busy with work but socially I've pulled back from my friends, I feel like they're thinking that as I'm 42 my chances of becoming a Mum are slim. I am normally someone who if I really want something, I work at it and it happens and I've always considered myself lucky with lots of blessings. But the last 18months have been tough, it's so out of your control that I find it frustrating. I can read articles, take temps, get blood tests, pee on sticks but none of it can magic a healthy baby for me and my hubby. I know the fact that I actually got pregnant twice is one hurdle crossed but I'm starting to feel a big ticking clock sitting over me. I dont want it to get in on me,but over time it is, in the past I always believed "what's for you doesn't pass you" I just don't want to consider that maybe being a Mum isn't for me.