I can't stop crying tonight. I know there would never be a good time for this to have happened, but it couldn't have been worse timing, my boyfriend has been abroad since Friday night as his dad was taken critically ill all of a sudden and had to have major surgery, so my boyfriend flew out friday.
I started spotting friday afternoon, then bleeding saturday and miscarried Sunday morning, I phoned my boyfriend heartbroken in the early hours of sunday and told him we had lost the baby. We've been talking on the phone several times a day, and i'm trying so hard to be brave and positive, his dad has had to have major surgery and has only just come out of intensive care this morning, so my boyfriend has all of that upset and worry to deal with too.
I feel so scared that there will be something wrong, I have to go for a scan on sunday as i was still bleeding heavily when they scanned me last sunday, and i'm scared they might say that not everything has come away and i'll need a procedure (dont know what its called), and I'm even more terrified i wont get pregnant again. I wont a cuddle from my boyfriend so badly. Hopefully he's flying home tomorrow night or friday, but I feel bad that he's coming back when he's dads still so poorly, equally I'm desperate for him to be back with me
Sorry for the long post, just so sad and need to get it off my chest I suppose. I feel so heart broken, we were so excited and happy to have been expecting our first child
xx