Well after what happened with Alec the other night we have both decided to make a clean break 
. It's for the best I know that and he need's so much more help than I can give him right now. We have split and got back together 3 times now and it's just not going to work. I have my boy's to think of and cant handle the emotions of attempted suicides. It hurt so much what he did, it's to do with lots of things rolled into one and said he was really drunk but he knew he just wanted to die, my heart ached for him cause I realised just how low he was and just held him. He was let out of hospital yesterday evening and we havent really had a full on talk but we know where it is going, that much we have spoke about. I am worried about how Josh will handle it again but I think he might be ok (as can be expected) as we arent arguing and having slanging matches this time around.
So on the hunt for a job, house (cant afford to stay in this one, but not moving till can get somewhere) and a new life with me and my 2 men (3 counting the dog
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UPDATE
It's been a while since I have been here, but to let you ladies know whats been happening. Alec is now moving out next month, been a little strained at times but bearable. I told Josh yesterday and he took it quite well, He cried at first and it broke my heart to see him like that. Then the little bugger bounces back with "does that mean I can eat in the living room now" the cheek lol. . I am keeping the house on and hopefully be enroled on an access to nursing course in March( too late to start this term). Am looking forward and not back cause I have the little monsters to think of. So there you go, my life has just turned around, more than likely for the better ., Thanks for all your kind words 
. It's for the best I know that and he need's so much more help than I can give him right now. We have split and got back together 3 times now and it's just not going to work. I have my boy's to think of and cant handle the emotions of attempted suicides. It hurt so much what he did, it's to do with lots of things rolled into one and said he was really drunk but he knew he just wanted to die, my heart ached for him cause I realised just how low he was and just held him. He was let out of hospital yesterday evening and we havent really had a full on talk but we know where it is going, that much we have spoke about. I am worried about how Josh will handle it again but I think he might be ok (as can be expected) as we arent arguing and having slanging matches this time around.So on the hunt for a job, house (cant afford to stay in this one, but not moving till can get somewhere) and a new life with me and my 2 men (3 counting the dog
) xUPDATE
It's been a while since I have been here, but to let you ladies know whats been happening. Alec is now moving out next month, been a little strained at times but bearable. I told Josh yesterday and he took it quite well, He cried at first and it broke my heart to see him like that. Then the little bugger bounces back with "does that mean I can eat in the living room now" the cheek lol. . I am keeping the house on and hopefully be enroled on an access to nursing course in March( too late to start this term). Am looking forward and not back cause I have the little monsters to think of. So there you go, my life has just turned around, more than likely for the better
., Thanks for all your kind words 
