Its just getting harder

[Shinnyshoe]

Hi all,

Just need to vent a bit

Now OH and I have been trying since last April with no luck. This month I had all sorts of symptoms which I never normally get before I'm due so I did the bad thing and allowed my hopes to get up, I was a day late and nearly bouncing off the walls it all just felt right then bam the most horrendous cramping and pain I've had and there the witch was! I was gutted and sat at my desk at work and just tried to carry on. Today a friend I work with who I know has also been TTCing for at least a year told me they were 11 weeks OMG I was so happy for them they had some issues ealier in the year (MC) but when I got in the car to come home I just burst into tears I couldn't help it. I'd managed previous months just to say to myself its not our month we will get it next. I felt so angry with myself I try not to let it get to me but its getting so hard.

Anyone else just get them days where its all they can think about and could just scream!

 

[Clairabella]

Hi shineyshoe,

Hope that you are ok TTC is so hard on our emotions I totally know how you are feeling at the moment. My OH called be earlier this week to tell me that a friend is pregnant I was in the supermarket and I started to cry... How embarrassing! I don't think anybody saw me I just quickly ran through the self service checkout and then had a good sob in the car park. I am really happy for our friends but I so want it to be our turn more than anything else.

how are you feeling now? Sending you lots of hugs xx

 

[Shinnyshoe]

Still feel I could cry any moment (I'm not normally a crier) Like you say just want it to be our turn now.

Thanks for the hugs x

 

[hayes]

Im just the same, been ttc since last may and really thought that we had done it this month wen i was late and got my hopes up only to have the witch dash them again. I am fed up of always thinking about it too, just want it to be my turn now!!!

Michelle. x

 

[Iwant3]

are you sure you didn't have a chemical pregnancy this cycle? if you had symptoms that were new and and late extra painful heavy period - it could have been?

i know how you feel too about finding out about others being pregnant when you are ttc, you feel torn between how you should feel and how you actually feel! then feel guilty for feeling that way

 

[Binzy]

I know exactly how you feel. We tried for a year and it felt like the world and his wife were pregnant.
It felt so unfair and I cried loads so it's perfectly normal, not that that will make you feel much better. Big hugs x

 

[Shinnyshoe]

I don't really know much about chemical pregnancy's I've heard a few people mention them on here but not sure what to look for.

 

[Ann30]

Yeah I no exactly how u feel. I'm due on next week and I'm just dreading it as I do get a bit scared of how down I get. I no the hormones make it worse but it's horrible and every where I look and every time I go on bloody Facebook someone is pregnant! It's horrible too when ur walking round town and there are those horrible chavvy mothers shouting at their kids I just want to scream "it's not fair!" . On the whole, most days it's fine it's just comin on that is pure hell so I hope it helps even just a little bit to know that u r not on ur own I'm actually goin to the docs today as I been gettin these wierd pains in my left ovary for the last few days and I made the mistake of looking on the Internet to see what it could be now I'm all paranoid! Take care hun just focus on u for the next few days and doin things u love and what make u happy xx

 

[hayes]

Chemical pg did cross my mind this month as i was a week late with af and i had a 38 day cycle which i have never had before so thats why i got my hopes up. I think tho its best not to think about it, as you will never know, and just think about the nxt cycle and altho its so hard right now it will b worth it in the end wen we get our bfp.

Michelle. x