Hi Ladies
i'm new to this forum and just need to share my current feelings etc. At the end of January, after a good scan with a heartbeat, i miscarried at just over 6 weeks.
I was 'lucky' in that is was natural and bleeding stopped within a week, but the pain was unbearable for the first few days. I had a horrible experience with doctors, including being laughed out of a&e and told to go home with some codeine when i first thought something was amiss.
Just over a week ago i started getting positive hpts and after a blood test and scan confirmed i was 5 and half weeks. I never felt any initial joy just apprehension and fear. i had three successive blood tests and was told my hcg was rising but not doubling. Have a scan booked in for next week but was told 'be prepared for no heartbeat'. Brown spotting has turned to red blood and although its not pouring out and i have no cramps i know whats happening.
Luckily i had booked a week off work from today as i knew the run up to the scan would be stressful even before the bleeding started. I have also just found out that my brother's girlfriend is expecting and is at the same stage i would have been with my first.
I feel so alone and like i am being punished. I am literally waiting for the inevitable to happen. This hasnt felt like a pregnancy, just a waiting game and I'm feeling incredibly let down by all the health professionals I've dealt with. I also have no idea whether i should inform work... i think not as they may hold it against me if they think i am planning a family.
I feel like such a failure and i dont know how to cope with my brother's gf's pregnancy and the fuss that will surround that. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
i'm new to this forum and just need to share my current feelings etc. At the end of January, after a good scan with a heartbeat, i miscarried at just over 6 weeks.
I was 'lucky' in that is was natural and bleeding stopped within a week, but the pain was unbearable for the first few days. I had a horrible experience with doctors, including being laughed out of a&e and told to go home with some codeine when i first thought something was amiss.
Just over a week ago i started getting positive hpts and after a blood test and scan confirmed i was 5 and half weeks. I never felt any initial joy just apprehension and fear. i had three successive blood tests and was told my hcg was rising but not doubling. Have a scan booked in for next week but was told 'be prepared for no heartbeat'. Brown spotting has turned to red blood and although its not pouring out and i have no cramps i know whats happening.
Luckily i had booked a week off work from today as i knew the run up to the scan would be stressful even before the bleeding started. I have also just found out that my brother's girlfriend is expecting and is at the same stage i would have been with my first.
I feel so alone and like i am being punished. I am literally waiting for the inevitable to happen. This hasnt felt like a pregnancy, just a waiting game and I'm feeling incredibly let down by all the health professionals I've dealt with. I also have no idea whether i should inform work... i think not as they may hold it against me if they think i am planning a family.
I feel like such a failure and i dont know how to cope with my brother's gf's pregnancy and the fuss that will surround that. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.