I have been hanging around this site for the last few months, although this is the first time I have posted as I am starting to think I am going mad
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I was on the pill for 13years but had to come off for health reasons, I then went onto the dreaded DEPO shot (please nobody ever have that bl**dy thing). I have been off the shot for 14 months now as I had horrible side effects, although my periods only started again 4 months ago. We are not actively TTC, (although OH isnt exactly careful now it is up to him, if you know what I mean) but for the last 9 months I have been hearing that biological clock ticking away inside my head (I turned 30 in Feb). At first, I thought it was because my periods were taking so long to come back after stopping the DEPO. However, I now realise that I long for children ASAP. OH isnt exactly sympathetic. We have been together for 6 years and he says he wants children, but not just yet. However, he does like making the odd joke. For example, almost every month he makes some silly comment about me possibly being pregnant and how terrible that would be .. Im painting him in a bad light as I know if we had an accident, it would be a happy one.
My problem is this, every month I convince myself I am pregnant and have all the symptoms, and every month my cycle gets longer and longer (25, 27, 31,35 days so far), and I have spent a fortune on PG tests. I have now convinced myself that I Od on cd8 (as I had pinkish discharge when I wiped) and as OH is only careful around cd14 (as he has a boys view of our cycles) then I must be pregnant. I keep having symptoms which I must be imagining as they appear and disappear. But Im still planning on how Im going to cope with upcoming events now I am PG (Im known for liking a drink at social occasions). I know I'm not PG but I can't help it. How do people just stop contraception and wait and see so calmly, I feel like I am becoming obsessed ..and Im not supposed to be trying!
Sorry for my rant but Ive been reading this forum for a while and I sort of knew youd all understand ..
I was on the pill for 13years but had to come off for health reasons, I then went onto the dreaded DEPO shot (please nobody ever have that bl**dy thing). I have been off the shot for 14 months now as I had horrible side effects, although my periods only started again 4 months ago. We are not actively TTC, (although OH isnt exactly careful now it is up to him, if you know what I mean) but for the last 9 months I have been hearing that biological clock ticking away inside my head (I turned 30 in Feb). At first, I thought it was because my periods were taking so long to come back after stopping the DEPO. However, I now realise that I long for children ASAP. OH isnt exactly sympathetic. We have been together for 6 years and he says he wants children, but not just yet. However, he does like making the odd joke. For example, almost every month he makes some silly comment about me possibly being pregnant and how terrible that would be .. Im painting him in a bad light as I know if we had an accident, it would be a happy one.
My problem is this, every month I convince myself I am pregnant and have all the symptoms, and every month my cycle gets longer and longer (25, 27, 31,35 days so far), and I have spent a fortune on PG tests. I have now convinced myself that I Od on cd8 (as I had pinkish discharge when I wiped) and as OH is only careful around cd14 (as he has a boys view of our cycles) then I must be pregnant. I keep having symptoms which I must be imagining as they appear and disappear. But Im still planning on how Im going to cope with upcoming events now I am PG (Im known for liking a drink at social occasions). I know I'm not PG but I can't help it. How do people just stop contraception and wait and see so calmly, I feel like I am becoming obsessed ..and Im not supposed to be trying!
Sorry for my rant but Ive been reading this forum for a while and I sort of knew youd all understand ..