swimmingfish
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Hi everyone..
Im sorry in advance but im beyond frustrated here. My story is that i got married and everything was fine until i start experiencing all this pain. My only health problem was somewhat controlled epilepsy but i was still able to drive i only had simple partial seizures. i was told my pain was fibro and nothing was wrong with me despite all my agony. So soon enough i got pregnant and im 39 weeks now.. Well low and behold a few months ago i find out everything is NOT fine. I havent driven since April because the epilepsy wound out of control.. the only medication i was given was Keppra and what did it do for me? Nothing! They wouldnt give me anything else because it might effect the baby. MEanwhile i lost my job since i had no way to get to work !! I also found i do NOT have fibro but Rheumatoid arthritis and Ankylosing spondylitis. So my rheumatologist slammed the door in my face because i was pregnant and said i cant start treatment until after baby. Well since April the auto immune rapidly progressed to the point i was crawling to the bathroom and all joints have been effected even my JAW. i just found a new rheumatologist who started me on class B sulfasalazine and i was told it would be 1-3 months for it to take effect and that complete remission would be unlikely since i have so many joints effected. thank god i didnt wait ANY longer even though the last rheumatologist called me selfish and told me to get my priorities straight because anything i take might effect the baby. That lady about had me on my death bed.
Well here i am at the end of my pregnancy and every doctor i have been to throughout this has blamed my disease on the baby and the pregnancy and how i got sick because of being pregnant, etc etc, they left me thinking this baby has caused me a disease , destroyed my life and my health. im so frustrated. i was finally labelled high risk last month after all this time. The doctors never cared to help me just my baby and left me in this agony. I was so excited when i first found out i was pregnant and now im so hateful and resentful. I keep feeling like this baby has ruined me and i dont know what to do. Maybe i just need some support here from other people in a similar situation. I just wanted my life back i never knew pregnancy could have this effect on a person. I wanted to care about my baby and have a family with my husband but now i just want this to be over and have my old life back before the disease. Why why why i cant understand. im so sad i dont know what to do and im afraid i will be so hateful now to the baby.
Im sorry in advance but im beyond frustrated here. My story is that i got married and everything was fine until i start experiencing all this pain. My only health problem was somewhat controlled epilepsy but i was still able to drive i only had simple partial seizures. i was told my pain was fibro and nothing was wrong with me despite all my agony. So soon enough i got pregnant and im 39 weeks now.. Well low and behold a few months ago i find out everything is NOT fine. I havent driven since April because the epilepsy wound out of control.. the only medication i was given was Keppra and what did it do for me? Nothing! They wouldnt give me anything else because it might effect the baby. MEanwhile i lost my job since i had no way to get to work !! I also found i do NOT have fibro but Rheumatoid arthritis and Ankylosing spondylitis. So my rheumatologist slammed the door in my face because i was pregnant and said i cant start treatment until after baby. Well since April the auto immune rapidly progressed to the point i was crawling to the bathroom and all joints have been effected even my JAW. i just found a new rheumatologist who started me on class B sulfasalazine and i was told it would be 1-3 months for it to take effect and that complete remission would be unlikely since i have so many joints effected. thank god i didnt wait ANY longer even though the last rheumatologist called me selfish and told me to get my priorities straight because anything i take might effect the baby. That lady about had me on my death bed.
Well here i am at the end of my pregnancy and every doctor i have been to throughout this has blamed my disease on the baby and the pregnancy and how i got sick because of being pregnant, etc etc, they left me thinking this baby has caused me a disease , destroyed my life and my health. im so frustrated. i was finally labelled high risk last month after all this time. The doctors never cared to help me just my baby and left me in this agony. I was so excited when i first found out i was pregnant and now im so hateful and resentful. I keep feeling like this baby has ruined me and i dont know what to do. Maybe i just need some support here from other people in a similar situation. I just wanted my life back i never knew pregnancy could have this effect on a person. I wanted to care about my baby and have a family with my husband but now i just want this to be over and have my old life back before the disease. Why why why i cant understand. im so sad i dont know what to do and im afraid i will be so hateful now to the baby.