I honestly am....

[LilyMac]

sick and tired of being pregnant now and just want my baby!

I had severe morning sickness untill 16/17 weeks and then was diagnosed with SPD at 20 weeks which has just been horrific and the most agonising pain Ive ever experienced! Now I have pre natal depression as well apparently, which would make sense really as I constantly feel down and I struggle to get through each day without having a breakdown of some sort, some days its hard to even get out of bed.

I know a lot, if not all, of you are struggling or going through hard times too, so Im not trying to say Im on my own in this because I know Im not. Im just finding it so hard to get through the day, Ive still got 3 weeks left until my due date and the thought of having to go through another 3 weeks makes me cry.
I just want my baby now!!! I cant deal with the pain and uncomfortableness of it all anymore.
My midwife seems incapable of giving me any help or support and Im feeling really alone. My OH is brilliant but theres only so much he can do and I know its hard for him too as he has to watch me be in pain and be miserable and I know he feels helpless.

I wish I could just turn up at the hospital and say get my baby out of me now please, and then they actually did! I cant face going through another 3 weeks, and I reckon lil man will be stubborn and not show up on time so itll be even longer still!!!

Sorry for the long and useless post, am just feeling really down today

 

[kellylou]

Aw hun big hugs, being pregnant is hard at the best of times without evwrything else your going through is there anything u can do to take ur mind off things and try to hep the days pass quicker?

 

[flexilexi394]

hey
sorry to hear your having a rough time of it sweet, it is so nearly over, your within touching distance! it really wont be long. hopefully your baby might decide to come early! that would be a bonus
hope you feel better soon. xxx

 

[indigo]

Aww, you do seem to be having a hard time of it. Have you seen your doctor, may be more use than your midwife if she's a bit rubbish? Not really got any other advice, but can offer a big if it helps!

 

[LilyMac]

Thanks girls. The most I can do is go out for an hour or so, spd hurts too much to move much
All my friends are at work so I cant even get them round to keep me company, have just gotta sit here and mope!
I know 3 weeks isnt long but it feels like its taking forever! I wish he would come early but I think hes too comfortable in there and I doubt he wants to come out ever!!!xx

 

[LilyMac]

My doctors is rubbish!! The baby will be here before I even got an appointment now lol its the worst doctors Ive ever come across. Ill just speak to the midwife again and demand she at leasts offers some sort of advice, its her job after all!!

Ive just remembered were having bump photos done on tuesday, thats cheered me up a bit xx

 

[x.Lilly.x]

aww hun, your so nearly there and have done SO well!
I have just been put on depression tablets so know how you feel with feeling down alot, its not much fun is it *hugs*
Just think your going to have your gorgeous baby soon and hell make it all so worth while xxx

 

[LilyMac]

Its crap ent it hun. I'm just so glad for all the help and support you girls give obn here, I'd. Honestly be lost without it!
I'm feeling a bit better today, little man is kicking loads and constantly reminding me what I've got to look forward to
Xx

 

[Poxie_pixie]

Just remember your little man will be here soon and you'll forget all about the crappyness and I read that swimming is good for spd and it takes the weight off so you could try that hun. xXx