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Horrible thoughts and dreams

charlie84

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I am assuming it is a natural thing to worry about things that could happen to our LOs but lately i have been having awful thoughts and now dreams about it :(

Its starting to get me down as i find myself with these thoughts quite alot lately.
Mainly they are about things that could hurt Calleigh, i wont say exactly because its not nice, then i have thoughts/dreams of me dying and leaving her, i then panic as i am her source of food and imagine the distress she will be in if i suddenly just disappear :(
It is driving me to distraction and i find myself double/triple checking the front door is locked, and being wary about being out and about in certain circumstances.

I know that we will always worry about our children but i certainly hope i wont always feel like this, i just feel as though i am being a little extreme IYKWIM.

Not sure what the point of this post is but i think if i discussed it with OH he may just say i have an overactive mind and these things will never happen.
 
I feel exactly the same. I've had them since i gave birth. They were stupid like i fell down the stairs while carrying her or trip up and hit a wall which would mean her head would hit it first. I watched every single step i took.
I nipped to the shop last night and left her with her dad. But i kept having visions of having a car crash and them not know. She'll be in distress coz she's hungry and would she remember me if i'm gone. I'm terrified!
 
I get this as well. My Mum lives on a big hill and I imagine me walking down the hill pushing Summer in her buggy and the buggy slips put of my hand and goes into the main road!
I've always put my thoughts down to the PND but maybe it's just natural for a mum to have these worries.
It's disturbing! I have some awful upsetting thoughts and I also think about what would happen if I died suddenly. God it give me the shivers thinking about it. :(
 
o i am exaclty the same. every night before i go to sleep im scared to shut my eyes coz i think when i wake up abigail isnt gunna wake up. its hurrendous! i wake up every hour n check on her! :roll:
 
I have these thoughts too... i used to take the dog for a walk around the resavior (sp) while daddy was looking after Cooper, and i kept thinking someone was going to murder me and chop my boobs off :shock: i also don't like being without him incase something happens to me and he gets hungry. I've told everyone if something does then i want him fed on aptimal as its the closest thing to boob milk! I don't know what it is but when the thoughts appear i just try and shake them off without dwelling on them too much. I seem to be alot more scared of things aswel :think: tis strange. :hug: :hug: :hug:
 
Me too!! I am hoping its normal, I used to get terrible disturbing nightmares for a while after she was born, now its just random horrible thoughts, I am so frightened of losing her! I quite often get up in the night to check on her which is silly cos I am desperate for her to sleep through really, but because she doesnt I get in a panic if she is sleeping better! :wall: :wall:
I am hoping this will fade as we get more confident that nothing dreadful is going to happen to us or our LOs its very disturbing :(
 
The thoughts of hurting your LO aren't necissarily mean you will. I have the same thoughts :( Do you ever find that when you have these thoughts when your holding LO and they make you hold them tighter to protecdt them? It's like you're making sure those things don't actually happen...It's hard to explain but I told my HV I had these thoughts when I was first diagnosed with PND expecting her to take my baby away but she said it's normal, and very common. As is worrying about dying or LO dying :hug: :hug: :hug:
 
Aww thanks girls for your replies :hug: :hug: :hug:

These feelings are bloody awful and yes poppy it makes me wanna hold on tight to LO and not let her go. I am always careful with LO but i get stupid thoughts if other people are holding her etc. But i know they are stupid thoughts.
But the ones that are getting to me are what strangers are capable of IYKWIM. Its makes me feel so sick to the stomach and once i have these dreams it takes ages to shake the fear away once awake.

One example of a dream was that she would fall into water or someone would push her buggy into water and i dont swim and this leaves me feeling so bad that i wouldnt be able to save her :cry: Silly i know but these kinda thoughts keep getting replayed back to me when i go to sleep.
 
You are definitely not alone. I worry about dying and leaving LO on her own too. I am even scared if something happened to me and I wouldn't be able to breastfeed anymore.

I have actually been dreaming too - it has reminded me of the weird dreams I had when I was pregnant.

Hope it gets better for you soon :hug: :hug: :hug:
 
I have a major issue aroud this, to the point I have very bad anxiety and panic attacks. It is normal to a degree, you are faced all of a sudden with your own mortality and the sheer responsibility of keeping your baby sqafe. Things that were safe before are now a potential threat. However if it is getting out of control, if it is stopping you doing things, or keeping youup all night then you should realy talk to someone about this :hug:
 
Sorry to hear what you are going through beanie :hug: :hug:

I have been having the what i call extreme thoughts/dreams for probably a few days. So far its not affecting me too much i just tend to be wary in certain circumstances more than i would be normally.

I just find my mind wandering to these terrible things and i feel sick and my heart races. I will mention it to my HV if i think its getting out of control.

I dont think anyone can prepare you for the extreme emotional rollacoaster that is parenthood and i have only experienced 6 months of it so far.
 
I would discuss how you're feeling with your health visitor, its not uncommon :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
 

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