Hoping for 3rd time lucky this year but so worried

[Tobyplusone]

Hello girls

First time posting so please be gentle.

Have been trying for baby 2 ( mum to 6 year old) since August 2014.
In January I had an ectopic at 5w 3d resulting in a tube removal. 6th November I started bleeding and miscarried at 4w 3d.
14th December (my boys birthday) I got a bfp after having sore boobies for 4 days.
Thing is I didn't have a period in between. The hospital have booked me in for an early scan this Tuesday 21st to check things are going in right direction. I would hope to see a heartbeat if I truly am 6w 1d as that would make me 6w4d on Tuesday but as no period they can't tell for certain.
I am so scared of loosing again I am driving myself mad, what with xmas as well if they can't see enough I'm going to be as stressed as I am now or worse.

I am analysing everything, from every little ache in my belly, checking if more boobs hurt (they haven't been sore last 2 days). Checking for blood when I wipe 30 times a day, I ain't sleeping.

Any advice welcome or even ideas of how to take my mind off worrying.

 

[Lou1103]

Hey hun,
Sorry for your losses
Completely normal to be worried and I'm still on knicker watch. I've had past miscarriages and i don't think it will be possible for me to ever enjoy pregnancy now.
It's good that you're being scanned so soon though..
Try to relax this weekend, I know it's hard but just try to keep busy and distract yourself xxx

 

[millielaura]

No advice as I am just as worried, been ttc since december 2013 with 3 losses and several chemicals so just wanted to say I know how you feel and thinking of you! Xx

 

[Tonks82]

Hey love so sorry for your losses but you really aren't alone with your anxiousness over getting another BFP.

I'm preg with 2nd too I'm only 5 weeks today but since January I've suffered 3 very early losses and like you I'm stressed!
This evening I went out to dinner and suddenly I convinced myself I had started bleeding whilst sitting at the table as it felt like a big glob was coming out (sorry tmi). My heart sank and I excused myself but it was just discharge. I'm constantly checking my boobs like you are, I feel I should be more tired at this stage but I'm not really! I feel so sad I can't be as excited as I felt when I was pregnant with my first!

Sorry I don't have any advice to take your mind off it but I'm really just trying to take one day/week at a time. I told myself I would be happy if I get to 5 weeks as I haven't managed to yet in the last year but I'm still just as anxious. Now I'm trying to get to the end of next week.


Good luck & fingers crossed you have a sticky bean this time xxx

 

[umbongo]

Just wanted to say good luck. Try and stay busy and be kind to yourself. It's normal to be anxious given your history but every pregnancy is a fresh start and this bean will hopefully be your sticky rainbow. Good kick with the scan, let us know how it goes xx

 

[Tobyplusone]

Thank you all., feeling a little more positive today and my boobs are absolutely killing so I'm taking that as a positive sign... Hopefully this time tomorrow I will have positive feedback as scan is early at 9am... Fingers crossed anyway.

 

[lottie89]

Good luck! I agree with you, It is completely nervewracking, I've had 3 scans and I still check every time I go to the toilet for blood and cross my fingers every time I go to a scan. The best piece of advice I can give is that it's a new egg, new lining, new baby.

 

[Unicorn]

I'm so sorry for your losses and really hope you get some reassurance tomorrow xx

 

[Tobyplusone]

Wow, I am absolutely over the moon.  Scan this morning revealed one little blob with a flickering heartbeat....  They were unable to date me properly but have told me between 5-6 weeks.  

I have been discharged from Early pregnancy unit as everything is in the right place and as heartbeat nothing else requires until normal 12 week scan....  

I don't actually think I will be able to wait that long and may book a private for about 4 weeks time.  But for now I am going to relax and enjoy Christmas.  

Xxx

 

[Nickinakinoo]

Aww big congrats Hun, xx

 

[Tonks82]

Thats brilliant hun, congratulations xx

 

[fairyprincess]

Great scan pic, try to relax hun x

 

[MelC2011]

Lovely picture.
Huge congratulations xx