getting there

[dina.marie]

well its just over a month now since i lost bean. the first few weeks were awful, i didnt really know how i was going to cope. but last week i went back to work. initally it was hard with people asking me if i was ok and the reality of going back to work was tough. my first AF also came and went last week, i found it quiet emotionally hard because it just cemented the fact that i wasnt pregnant anymore and it was also very heavy bleeding which i associated with the m/c. but on the bright side im relieved it meant i had a 'normal' period which means i can try to concive again (yay and eek!).

i would have been 16 weeks now, i would of had an even bigger bump and i may have even been able to feel bean move a little. yeh its sad but i cant keep thinking what would have been. i cant watch the charlotte church show cuz her EDD is 2 days after what mine would have been. i cant sit and watch her bump grow, knowing mine would have been the same.

when i have a bad day and im sad about my loss i dont think im ready yet to ttc, but on the good days i get really excited about getting pregnant again. and the bad days are lessening and im having more good days now so i thought WTF, lets just do it. we arent going to stress out over it, we have just stopped using welly boots and we will just wait and see.THE BRAVE DO NOT LIVE LONG BUT THE CAUTIOUS DO NOT LIVE ATAL xxx

 

[tracey 2]

didnt want to read and run but am thinking of you and sending lots of love and hugs to you

here if you ever need to talk xx

 

[Anna23]

 

[mrs_metal]

Good luck TTC hun