having a really miserable day. went into work for meeting hoping they were closing my ward and id get a nice new job but no theyre keeping it open til june and then if were lucky it will become a cdiff/mrsa ward oh yeah cant wait 
had to try and change some shifts as no one can look after nathan managed to but this means leaving him for 8 hours which i really dont want to do. im fed up of working my head says i have to but my heart is screaming for me to stay with nathan. im pissed off that we pay hundreds a month for oh ex wife to stay at home smoking and doing sh*t else (she couldnt give a toss what the kids are upto) when i want to stay at home and cant.
really cheesed off so i have drunk half a bottle of wine
well hopefully ill get pregnant this month(come off today) and wont have to worry about it in 9 months.
and the patient that i left crapping blood on tuesday with dr contemplating what to do
is now on the bleed unit god why dont they let nurses make the decisions 
god i need to cheer up bloody miserable cow!
had to try and change some shifts as no one can look after nathan managed to but this means leaving him for 8 hours which i really dont want to do. im fed up of working my head says i have to but my heart is screaming for me to stay with nathan. im pissed off that we pay hundreds a month for oh ex wife to stay at home smoking and doing sh*t else (she couldnt give a toss what the kids are upto) when i want to stay at home and cant.really cheesed off so i have drunk half a bottle of wine
well hopefully ill get pregnant this month(come off today) and wont have to worry about it in 9 months.
and the patient that i left crapping blood on tuesday with dr contemplating what to do
is now on the bleed unit god why dont they let nurses make the decisions god i need to cheer up bloody miserable cow!
