zebrastripes
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I had a bit more time today to shower etc, so I used some new body scrub, body butter, shaved my legs for the first time since the king died, washed my hair, etc etc, basically took some time over my appearence...like i did back in the day, before having a shower was a quick scrub down with a brillo pad at the kitchen sink, between nappys and feeding...
and then I thought...why am I bothering? Because I'm going nowhere today, i'm going to see no one except baby, OH, parents etc, and the "clean" effect is somewhat ruined by my jeans, which are a little disreputable atm, to say the least.
and I felt like no one was ever going to fancy me, or find me attractive, ever again. so what was the point in even trying to look good?
which is totally the wrong attitude I know. But still, it's kind of correct isn't it?cause it wasn't like I had hordes of adoring admirers in the first place anyway ansd I didn't particularly care at the time..but it's different now when I know i won't....even though I don't actually want any, I'm perfectly happy with my boyfriend...but it's the principle ofthe thing damnit!
excuse my terrible grammar
and then I thought...why am I bothering? Because I'm going nowhere today, i'm going to see no one except baby, OH, parents etc, and the "clean" effect is somewhat ruined by my jeans, which are a little disreputable atm, to say the least.
and I felt like no one was ever going to fancy me, or find me attractive, ever again. so what was the point in even trying to look good?
which is totally the wrong attitude I know. But still, it's kind of correct isn't it?cause it wasn't like I had hordes of adoring admirers in the first place anyway ansd I didn't particularly care at the time..but it's different now when I know i won't....even though I don't actually want any, I'm perfectly happy with my boyfriend...but it's the principle ofthe thing damnit!
excuse my terrible grammar