Depression?

[leean10]

Apparently I am dealing with my last mc worse than I thought.

I went to see the HV again today and she told me that I should make an appointment for my GP as I am not sleeping well even though I am exhausted, I am so irritable my poor b/f hasn't got a clue what to do and I just don't care about anything anymore. I don't care if I go out, don't care what I look like, I just want to stay in bed all day and not move.

Does that sound like depression to anyone? I don't really fancy going on anti depressants but I know that is what will happen if I go to my doctor and she diagnoses that.

Lee-Ann

 

[jojo3972]

it does sound like it to me and if u dont seek help it will just get worse and worse and u will probably end up losing everything thats the bottom line,by admiting u have depression and getting help is the way forward and ur first step to recovery ,i know we like to think we are strong us woman but sometimes we just rnt and we try to hide it, you have been througha realy rough time lately bless ya, make an app for ur doc and see what he suggests there is nothing wrong with taking antids if they will help you, take care xxx

 

[leean10]

I am quite emotional too, snapping at the slightest thing!!

I really thought I was dealing with it all, getting over it. I'm at work, going to the gym, doing normal things but they are getting harder to do and I do feel like I am going to snap soon.

I guess I will have to go to the doctor and see what she says.

Lee-Ann xx

 

[jojo3972]

it also wont help bcos ur hormones will be all over the shop i was the same weeks after my mc cos of the hormones it was like i had constant pms that with the heartache isnt a gd mix at all,they may suggest u see a counciler maybe,dont be hard on urself losing a baby is relay hard to deal with and ppl that havnt been there have no idea what its like xx

 

[leean10]

Thanks hon!!

This one was only very early and my hormones had started decreasing already but I guess they could still be there!! I am in a lot of pain (emotionally) and I guess I am trying hard to hide it and it isn't working because I am taking it all out on the people closest to me.

Its the lack of sleep that is getting to me the most and making me withdrawn. I am normally a very happy, chatty person but now I want to be left alone. I don't care if I see people or not atm and I am struggling with the pretense of being happy to see visitors.

Thanks for listening to me.

Lee-Ann xx

 

[jojo3972]

ur hcg levels will be bk to normal its all the other womanly hormones that seem to take forever to settle or thats what i blamed anyways lol the lack of sleep isnt gonna help and the doc will be able to help with that aswel cos we just cant function properley without enough sleep, so pop along to see ur doc and take a step forward to the future and everything else will follow and just take each day as best u can and maybe try having a date night with ur man get dressed up make an effort and go out have a date make urself feel gd again will do u and him the world of gd xx

 

[leean10]

Thanks hon.

It is struggling to get myself motivated to go out somewhere!! I met him for lunch today and we had chips on the beach which was nice and made me feel slightly better but I am so tired, I could cry.

I will make an appointment to see the doctor tomorrow I think.

Lee-Ann x

 

[jojo3972]

yes u do that and think of tomoro beeing a new start and take each day as it comes gd luck xxx

 

[Terrie]

massive hope you see a light at the end of the tunnel soon x

 

[mishi]

Hi sweets

Don't be worried about talking to your GP, you don't necessarily have to go on tablets it's not the only option.

Maybe you need to think about some bereavement counselling honey - it really can help. I write things down, here and more privately in a paper diary and I remind myself it's ok to feel sad, angry, upset and like I want to scream and sob at times!

Don't be too hard on yourself sweets, you've been through alot

xxx

 

[leean10]

It is starting to get out of hand as I am so tired yet I was awake at 3 again this morning to go to the loo!!

I have got a paper diary but I don't write in it as much as I should maybe, I think I might start again this weekend when I have a spare 5 mins!!

Thanks for listening to me, I am just trying to understand why I feel like I do.

Lee-Ann x

 

[mishi]

Darling you feel like you do because you are grieving.

If you had lost a parent, a partner or a friend, people would understand, but losing a pregnancy is different and some people expect you to bounce back, but don't expect it of yourself - it's been a huge loss for you honey and it's ok to feel like this.

My consultant warned me that it's a different type of grief, you are grieving the potential of someone rather than a known person. So there are no pictures, no happy times together to remember, etc so in some respects its harder than grieving for someone you spent time with. He warned me there would be many ups and downs, for many months to come and he was right.

The sleeping is a difficult one as it makes things worse, but maybe if you see a counsellor and start to work through your grief this will improve the sleeping too?

I'd ask for a referral honey

xxxx