This is not so much a question but me just opening up on feelings! My baby is 5 weeks on Sunday and I mainly BF with the occasional formula bottle. This is because I struggled to express and needed my husband to help with feeds. I don't find BF a bonding experience like some mums do, for me it's draining and can make me feel down at times. I want to carry on as long as possible and fingers crossed express more. I have already been thinking of when I can start weaning (4-5 months if baby is ready) because I want to take off the pressure of BF. I know I could add more formula feeds but the midwife said once made it lasts for 2 hours so I have no idea how people manage to regularly feed without having get to make up fresh bottles when the baby shows signs of being hungry. Surely there is a way to prepare bottles in advance to a certain extent! I do feel pressured to mainly breastfeed so don't want to let anyone down especially my baby but I don't know if I can BF for another 5/6 months or longer!