Christmas wishes for those no longer with us..

[helsekia]

to mum and dad,nanna and gran
I miss you all so much.

mum i think about you every day,you would be so proud of your gorgeous grandchildren and i would give anything to have you give them a cuddle.i dont think i will ever go a day without thinking of you and it hurts as much now as it did when you first left me 11years ago
dad i really dont know what to say,words cannot describe how much i miss you,you were always the special man in my life,your grandson looks so much like you and will be as wonderful as you one day as I know you are looking down on all of us.

when i look in the night sky tonight to say goodnight to you both please send me a hug back down xxxx



this made me cry now

 

[Mummy-D]

Miss you bro - cant believe it has been 6 years already, where has the time gone? I have just finished putting all the presents out for Kieran, all ready for the morning. Kc still recognises you in the pics he has of you, even though he was so little when you went. Anyways, wherever you are, i hope you are happy and at peace now. Love you forever xx

Another day for you to wonder, another day for you to mourn
It wasn't my intention to go before the coming dawn
My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head
It wasn't my intention to go without words said.

My frame of mind seemed normal, or so I heard them say
It wasn't my intention not to see another day
I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain
It wasn't my intention to never see you again.

Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure
It wasn’t my intention to suddenly close life's door
If only I could give you reasons and brush the tears away
It wasn’t my intention to leave and not stay.

I did not mean for you to grieve, now left alone to cry
It wasn’t my intention to leave you, forever askinq why
As the burdens of life's worries slowly ebb from my heart
It wasn’t my intention to tear your soul apart.

For Ian 1978 - 2002

 

[Miss.Monroe]

nana, miss you so much. I think of you all the time. I would give anything for you to have been here And held sophie.I hope you are watching us and are proud of the way things are going for us. I haven't changed,I just wish I knew that you wernt happy here and you wanted to go. I would have held you extra tight the last time if I knew.I miss your laugh and your smell. I love you so much.xxx

 

[*CLAIREBEAR*]

for julie x

a poem i wrote for my sister after she died on 06/03/08,it would have been her 34th birthday today,it has been out first xmas without her.................

this awful pain..........


This awful pain i feel inside,it cuts through very deep,
It makes me feel so breathless,so numb,and i want to weep,
This awful pain i feel inside,is with me everyday,
Regrets of things i should have done and things i wanted to say,
This awful pain i feel inside,is because you wanted to go,
You'd had enough of this world,as you had suffered so,
This awful pain i feel inside,is hoping your'e at peace,
Its wanting to know your'e feeling better now and that your minds at ease,
This awful pain i feel inside,is because i miss you Julie,
Since you've gone i feel so empty,but i'll aways love you truly,
This awful pain i feel inside,it can make me want to hide,
This awful pain i feel inside,is my loss through suicide.

love and miss you always julie,love claire x

happy birthday up in heaven,xxxxxxxxxx