Bored Of Waiting - So Impatient

[Vixx]

So, I have about 6 months before coming off the pill and 8 months before TTC, and I just want it now. I really do not have any patience at the best of times and whats made things worse is I visited my sister this weekend just gone and met her newborn (he is now about 3 wks old) and he was the most adorable gorgeous little thing. All I wanted to do was cuddle him and look after him, and my maternal instincts havent been like that for a long long time. Now, its all I can think about and I just literally want to say to OH, lets try now!! But we can't, we really do have to wait... its so frustrating!

Im trying to focus on other things such as working out, eating healthy, getting fit for pregnancy, working, but its literally all I think about and its so bizarre as this time last year I wasnt even sure if I wanted anymore children (I have a 14 year old son from a previous relationship), but now its all I can think about, arghhh!

Can anyone help? Does anyone else feel like this?
I feel like Im constantly googling pregnancy things etc, Im sure this isnt healthy.
Please tell me Im not going mad! haha

 

[Leannef88]

Hi Vixx, I feel exactly the same way as you do. It is on my mind 24/7, obsessing over youtube videos of birthing stories and watching other people with their new born babies. I too am waiting for a couple of reasons, 1 being an abnormal smear test result that needs investigation and 2 my OH is not as enthusiastic as I am about having a baby.

All I can say is keep doing what you are doing, getting healthy and fit etc. With me it does come in waves, some days I am OK and other days is consumes my brain completely.

Like everyone keeps telling me time will pass so quickly and you will soon be ready but at times it feels the opposite!

Stay positive and don't let it bring you down. You are certainly NOT alone!!

xxxx

 

[Vixx]

Aww thanks for your lovely comments Leanne, its so nice to know I'm not the only one going through this.
I just feel so desperate for one now, which is crazy as this time last year I honestly didnt think I would have another one, and didnt even consider it but since meeting my new lovely OH just over a year ago, its completely changed my mindset on life and now I just want a happy little family.
Its difficult to be told to wait isn't it, and I understand your reasons below. I'm not sure what your investigations entail, but I had abnormal smears for about 8 years, going to the hospital every 6 months and having biopsies etc, but as soon as I turned about 25/26 it seemed to sort itself out (thank god! as I thought there was something seriously wrong with me).
How long do you have to wait to find out? If you don't mind me asking, what is your current situation, must be tough when OH isnt as enthusiastic as you!?
My reasons for waiting are, I need to wait until I get divorced and sold my house with the ex-husband also, what a total nightmare that could be, I hope not, as I really would like to start trying Sep this year, once the divorce is finalised.
OH now is just perfect, goes to show how much things can change from one very unhappy relationship to another, which is so amazing. I know its still fairly early days but I honestly cant see us changing, everything just seems so right I feel very lucky.

Sorry to ramble on! But its nice to chat to someone who is in the same boat as me

xxx

 

[MayBMore]

Hey ladies I can relate to how frustrating it is knowing on the one hand that you want a baby vs putting a concious restriction on TTC...to quote my friend, it's like invasion of the body snatchers! - it must be a primal urge, but that is because our bodies are ready and I for one am picking up those signals loud and clear! I can't financially afford to do so yet or we will be in s***street and that is confusing. Instinct vs money doesn't settle well with me but being sensible about it is just about winning at the moment. Wishing you all the best! Keep yourselves occupied xx

 

[Vixx]

I totally understand what youre saying Stacey, its really not viable for us to TTC now, as we have 2 holidays to go on, plus alot of saving to do! I also have a house to sell, and this is all too much stress to contend with whilst TTC, but as you said, its very difficult, instinct vs sensibility!!Which I seem to be lacking severely everytime I think of TTC!! haha - Im trying very hard to be patient good luck to everyone else WTC