Bag of nerves

[Lilmisshopeful]

Sat in the doctors waiting for my check up and to find out if it was a medical mistake that made me lose Charlie. As much as I'd like it to be someone's fault to stop me blaming myself I don't know how I will react if he confirms there was a mistake with my medication. I think I would just like it to be one of those things but sometimes a reason helps with the guilt. I would give anything to be able to turn back time knowing what I know now. Think I best count to 10 before going in xxx

 

[lisey]

Oh I don't know what to say cos I am sure there are no words for how you are feeling. I hope you're ok and that you get confirmation either way. No matter what, this was not your fault. Sending you big virtual hugs xx

 

[mrz85]

Hugs honey x

 

[Lilmisshopeful]

Sat in the car crying I can't even drive home. It wasn't a mistake they was well aware of the risks but it was catch 22. I needed the medication to lower my blood pressure and for the clots so they had no choice but to prescribe it to give Charlie a chance as without it there was none kinda thing. Just so arghh I don't even know the words to use. Highly likely was his answer to was that why.... Kind of relieved it was nothing I did and knowing I could go on to carry a baby to term again. I'm being weaned off my daily medication so same thing wouldn't happen again. I really don't know how to feel right now. He offered me councilling for grief and for coping withing my anxiety medication but I said nah ill be fine lol. To stubborn for my own good me. Thank you so much for your replies xxx

 

[lisey]

So sorry you have all this stress If you feel you would like the counselling then just give them a call back hun and I am sure they will sort it. I am able to self-refer to my wellbeing centre, you may be able to do that too x

 

[Lilmisshopeful]

Think I'm going to call back ill try anything to stay off the meds. I've calmed down now but I'm a bit miffed they didn't tell me the risks at the time. A choice would have been nice. I would of stopped the citalopram cold and just suffered if it gave baby a better chance :/. No point dwelling tho we can't change the past. But we can give the future a helping hand xxx

 

[lisey]

I agree, they should have told you the risks involved so that you could make your own choice about it all. Doctors really frustrate me sometimes x

 

[Beckyb1991]

Hope that meeting can give you some closure huni , bigs hugs to you xxx

 

[jojo3972]

Big hugs darling I dint know what to say but I want u to know that I am here for you via message or Facebook which is in Facebook bit , take care urself xx

 

[Lilmisshopeful]

Thank you so much I really don't know what I'd do without you all xxx

 

[miss_soldier]

Hope your ok! Sending big hugs xxxxx

 

[Daley]

Sending you a big hug Hun! They should have told you the risks xxxxxxx

 

[papella]

nothing to add just sending a big hug hun