flaxen
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Im really not enjoying being a mum. I was never planning on having them in the first place having plans with my horses particularly my homebred sport horse who will be 2yrs next week ( plan was to back him next summer then winter resting then get going in spring and hunt/ compete at end of 4 coming up 5yrs old ).
I was ill all the way through and ended up having a c section due to doctors deciding my health wasnt good enough to carry on, I then very nearly bled to death due to them cutting through my femoral artery ( apparently its in the wrong place ) hence a major incision that almost touches both hip bones, long recovery and its now adhesed to my muscles.
Baby was really hard to look after- turns out she is milk and lactose intolerant and for 8 weeks cried and puked constantly.
I had about 6-8 weeks where she was good to look after, I was able to spend proper time with my horses (2 of ) but since april she has been harder to look after again, she now wont sit in her pram without screaming constantly at all while I try and sort them out, it scares them and they then mess around.
My husband doesnt help at all, he has never got up in the night for her and he wont get up on a morning and sort her, ok- he works nights but has about 2 days off a week but still wont do anythng with her, she is 6 mths old now.
I cant go back to work as child care fees cost more than I earnt but hubby says he cant afford my bills as well as his, so I am losing my car as have no income to pay for it, my mobile phone contract is being cancelled and the worst bit of all is having to sell my horse- he means the world to me and i cant see anything positive about life anymore. He hates my horses, always has done but im not even allowed to mention them.
So I will be stuck at home on my own all the time with a baby who screams in temper all day if you dont give her 100% attention all the time, she screams in tantrums for hours on a night when shes tired to the point she vomits but wont go to sleep. We are a good 2 miles from the nearest bus stop so wont get about anywhere.
He also goes on about wanting a boy ( im sure thats why he doesnt do anything with her ) as boys are fun, they wear boots and will be able to drive the tractors ( his family are farmers ) I even get moaned at for putting her in pink and dresses because it makes her look like a girl!
GRRR! Sorry for my post but i really wish i had my old life back, I never get time to myself not even watch a programme in peace.
I was ill all the way through and ended up having a c section due to doctors deciding my health wasnt good enough to carry on, I then very nearly bled to death due to them cutting through my femoral artery ( apparently its in the wrong place ) hence a major incision that almost touches both hip bones, long recovery and its now adhesed to my muscles.
Baby was really hard to look after- turns out she is milk and lactose intolerant and for 8 weeks cried and puked constantly.
I had about 6-8 weeks where she was good to look after, I was able to spend proper time with my horses (2 of ) but since april she has been harder to look after again, she now wont sit in her pram without screaming constantly at all while I try and sort them out, it scares them and they then mess around.
My husband doesnt help at all, he has never got up in the night for her and he wont get up on a morning and sort her, ok- he works nights but has about 2 days off a week but still wont do anythng with her, she is 6 mths old now.
I cant go back to work as child care fees cost more than I earnt but hubby says he cant afford my bills as well as his, so I am losing my car as have no income to pay for it, my mobile phone contract is being cancelled and the worst bit of all is having to sell my horse- he means the world to me and i cant see anything positive about life anymore. He hates my horses, always has done but im not even allowed to mention them.
So I will be stuck at home on my own all the time with a baby who screams in temper all day if you dont give her 100% attention all the time, she screams in tantrums for hours on a night when shes tired to the point she vomits but wont go to sleep. We are a good 2 miles from the nearest bus stop so wont get about anywhere.
He also goes on about wanting a boy ( im sure thats why he doesnt do anything with her ) as boys are fun, they wear boots and will be able to drive the tractors ( his family are farmers ) I even get moaned at for putting her in pink and dresses because it makes her look like a girl!
GRRR! Sorry for my post but i really wish i had my old life back, I never get time to myself not even watch a programme in peace.