Advice Required From A Lost Soul!

[Primrose]

I apolgize for not making an introduction but I'm not really a "forum" type of person as a rule but I have read so much here that makes me believe I am amongst friends. I say this because to me it is a lot easier talking to stangers than family because family "pussyfoot" a lot around the edges out of fear of causing upset when really brutal reality can at times be an absolute godsend.

Some histroy (cant believe I am typning this).

I had my first child when I was twenty.. I had a great pregnancy despite the most awful morning sickness ever where I couldnt keep anything down for 6 months, (walked out with a great figure). I loved the feeling of her growing and the feeling of her moving within me. Followed by the fastest birth ever. I loved the tug of love I felt when I breast fed her and every thing else that goes with being a new mum. At 6 months I lost her which destroyed me and my marriage and basically I hit rock bottom of which I spent some time climbing back recovering. I got there and ploughed myself into a career at which I was a success at. No sympathy please.

I'm now 34 and after 14 years of avoiding longterm serious reletionships out of fear of getting hurt and being really careful of contraception I have now found the man I will be spending the rest of my life with... he has already asked me to marry him of which I have said yes and I dont doubt his sincerity.. however he wants children. I have realised I am also (this is sad) desperate for a child.

To the messy part. Because of my fear of condoms after many many months I eventually went on Depo Provera which I took for 6 months which ran out on the 21st April. Since then we have been basically having unprotected sex. I had the most heaviest and painful breasts and period that I have ever had on May 28th with lasted until the 7th (10 days) followed by 7 days of nothing then it seems I have started my period again on the 15th June, but it is very light and an odd colour and only lasts for a few hours in the morning. Is this usual? I've used depo before and had very few side effects, perhaps its my age?

I so want a baby.

 

[poppy160]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I agree when you say you feel you are comfortable and are amongst friends while visiting the site, the ladies here are lovely.
I am speaking from experience here, as I have had the Depo injection which wore off Jan 5th. My partner and I have been trying to concieve since around that time but have only 'actively' started this last month or so. I hope this isn't going to dash your hopes too much, but the symptoms you are feeling could be due to the injection wearing off. Myself, and alot of women who have had the injection have experienced so many pregnancy symptoms when it started to wear off. As for the bleeding, it sounds nearly the same as me. I had nothing for about a month, started spotting in March, had a proper period in April and then had a wierd bleed in May, it was only during the day from about 11am to about 6pm. I had my hopes up as I thought it may have been an Implantation Bleed, but it lasted too long (8 days). A week after it stopped I had a full on period on the 31st.
As far as I'm aware I'm not ovulating either. This is just the way my body is dealing with the Depo wearing off and everybody reacts differently. Some women get pregnant straight away, whereas some wait as long as 18 months for even any type of bleeding. So it's a good thing that you have bled. If you are really concerned, the best thing would be to see you Doctor for advice, he/she will be able to help. Hope everything goes okay xxxx