2 days to go - GAH!

[clem]

I am struggling!!! I caved last night and did an early test, which was Big Fat Negative! But it's not over til that aunt comes to stay..........

Supposed to arrive on Thursday, so i guess I can test on Wednesday, but i am literally tapping my foot and drumming my fingers. AAHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh

I felt so sure earlier this month, a week into 2ww when i had strange cramps and lots of wind (sorry tmi), but now i can feel my usual pmt cramps, my usual mood swings, I just want to cry! It's not fair! We've been trying sooooo long and it was my birthday a couple of weeks ago and i'm getting really old!!! sob sob....

Sorry, just not sure I can handle yet another bfn and I want to know now!

 

[pinkymum]

awww Clem, try and keep your chin up. Must be really difficult

Thinking of you

x x x x

 

[PinkPunch]

since you did the test at night and doing it early then it probably wouldnt be right so fingers crossed x

 

[clem]

Sigh ........ Did another test this morning, still very very negative

An hour in the loo crying

These bloody hormones! Am sure period will come tomorrow

My husband is feeling really low about it too. What can we do though...... Doctors refuse to test us yet, can't afford to do it privately, just want to curl up in a corner today

 

[PinkPunch]

sorry clem. I know it's frustrating but don't give up hope.

 

[pinkymum]

Thinking of you clem *hugs*

I've had 2 BFN tonight, should have done it with fmu. Oh well, the witch will be back at the weekend no doubt. I'll either need to decide whether to try and find someone willing to give me there sperm, or find a decent guy to sleep with, or give up for just now


x xx x

 

[clem]

Thanks so much girls, am feeling better now, witch came yesterday, right on schedule, I think the hormones just got to me!! Not a great one for handling pmt as my husband will testify after i threw a pot plant out the bathroom window yesterday for getting mud on the windowsill. Then I felt terribly guilty and spent the whole evening repotting and reassuring it. (It seems to be fine today in case you were concerned, lol)

Don't you give up either pinkymum, think what fun you can have finding the perfect specimen of manhood. My brothers mum did the same. She was a lesbian but was fond of my Dad and asked him if he would help her concieve and he said yes (my parents were already divorced by then). Of course he was a bit stupid to have done it as he was gutted when she moved to Ireland taking his son with her, but we all stay in close touch. Have you considered a gay man? (no sex involved obviously) there must be loads who would like the opportunity to have a child, and you could have a wonderful caring father for your kid, who can help out with support and give you a break at weekends in the future and stuff? Just a thought........

 

[pinkymum]

Thanks clem,
Glad you're feeling better. Got a bfn this morning, af due today but hasn't shown up yet. I was the same yesterday with hormones. My toilet seat half broke so I pulled it off the toilet and threw it down. Not like me to get so angry.
Yeah I'll find a way of finding a man lol. At work just now, so using the phone. Will be on later

Pinky x