Wish me luck!

[lizsamuel80]

Well what a roller coaster! Almost 4 weeks since my 2nd miscarriage and almost 2 weeks since the condom blow out. I told one of my friends what happened and a similar thing happened to her and she bought heaps of cheap HPTs over the internet. She suggested I do the same because she knows the TWW is killer and testing feels like you are doing something.

On Monday morning I had spotting. Yesterday (Tuesday) I did one of those cheap tests I mentioned first thing in the morning not surprisily it was NEG. Anyway I felt just plain off yesterday and when I had a shower last night I noticed that my breasts are fuller. I've breast fed two babies in the past it's really noticeable when they start to fill out even now typing I can feel the difference in them as my arm rubs against them. My husband has been away since Monday he gets back tonight (Wednesday) so I'll see if he can see a difference.

Anyway I did another of those cheap tests this morning I thought it was negative. But then my eyes caught a shadow I held it against the test from yesterday and there was a def line just so light you can't see it. I thought maybe they were faulty so I bought another test a first response. Same coloured shadow. I'm now 98% sure we are expecting again and I'm freaking out!

I feel so out of control. The first one we lost was a surprise but got us in the mood to have more. Then we planned the second one and we lost it. Now we still planned to have more but we were going to wait a few months let me get over the last lost. I have so many emotions I'm scared and excited I can't tell which one is stronger.

 

[dyscochick]

OMG lisa, have you tested again?

 

[kanga86]

Aww hunny! It must be so scary, when are u testing again? Xxx

 

[lizsamuel80]

Yep I used the cheap test again and the line was still faint but it was darker and had more colour then yesterday's test. It's not exactly a hard positive yet. I'm not using the expensive one until Sat because I have a wedding on at the best sushi place in Perth and want to make sure before I go. I still have until Sunday at the earliest when my period is due. Last time I was still getting light positives until 2 days after my period was due.

But now I know I'm not loosing my mind or making it up because my husband could see it too. I could almost make the test sticks into a flip book. LOL!

I'm still a little freaked about it but everything seems stronger this time then the last two times. To tell you the truth it's never felt so good to feel just a tad hung over.

 

[dyscochick]

praying for your sticky bean

 

[kanga86]

Congrats, fx for ur sticky bean hunny xxx