Torturing myself

[Melanie3103]

Who else looks through their old posts ??

I have posts -

Summer 2013 - first BFP with first child

Then posts late 2014-early 2017 while we TTC #2 - rollercoaster each month - symptom spotting and POAS squinting

Then Easter 2017 - BFP #2 - and the excitement after 2.5yrs to be pregnant.

Then June 2017 as we lost our baby to a MC.

Here I am again - still trying - TTC #2


I love looking at everyones posts - “is this a line” etc — you wouldnt have thought i would, but i remember that disbelief at what u r seeing xx

 

[xMillie]

I try not to look.. but sometimes what's gets to me is when I see the counters of how long left to go on sigs from ladies who conceived the same time as me have.. I think blimey I would have been that pregnant

 

[Melanie3103]

I try not to look.. but sometimes what's gets to me is when I see the counters of how long left to go on sigs from ladies who conceived the same time as me have.. I think blimey I would have been that pregnant

Yeah i wouldve been due this week. Two cousins gave birth in the last 2 weeks too - neither was planned...

 

[xMillie]

Sorry to hear that

It's so hard.. hopefully we'll both have some luck soon xx

 

[Princess81]

it took me a year to conceive my son and I felt really torn on here. I was so pleased to see others get their positives, but from my own point of view it stung.
its a difficult place to be, I'm ttc from June and a little apprehensive about feeling this over again.
I suppose for me, I know I have fertility issues now, and therefore would be more likely to turn to specialist help if things didn't move a bit faster this time.
You certainly aren't alone with how you feel x

 

[Alexis2017]

Yeah I habe been here since Dec 2016 trying for our 1st baby. Still here. My old posts at the start are so full of hope. Now I am a former shadow of myself. Tired& deflated and genuinely heart broken.

I feel like I am frozen in time watching loads of others in here come ...then go with their bfp.

 

[MoominGirl]

I haven't been brave enough to look back through my posts as I think I'd just depress myself. I never thought I'd still be here after all this time and it's difficult to stay optimistic.

 

[Alexis2017]

I haven't been brave enough to look back through my posts as I think I'd just depress myself. I never thought I'd still be here after all this time and it's difficult to stay optimistic.

Yeah I here ya. X