The triumph of hope over experience, eh!

[snaggercelli]

I'm a very rational, considered sort of person. I'm logical. I enjoy keeping spreadsheets. I can always see both sides of an argument.

I'm pretty damn sensible!

But every month, without fail, I swear I identify several potential pregnancy symptoms. When will I learn? It's been more than 3 years now of ttc. That's 36 months of disappointment. How can my stupid head STILL think that every tiny symptom might mean I'm pregnant?! It's utterly ridiculous.

We are starting IVF soon (first consultation on Monday... Eek!) so in all honesty, it sort of doesn't even matter now what's happened this month; I mean, we've done everything we can naturally so all I can do now is hope the professionals can do it for us instead. But even so, I'm 15 days past ovulation, and obsessing over the fact that I've been getting twinges down below. Never mind the fact that my period will probably start tomorrow or the day after (I have quite long cycles, and quite a long luteal phase). Why on earth I felt the need to test on day 28 even though my period rarely starts before day 32, I don't know. (Of course, it was a BFN. But I still tell myself it might just be too early, so there's still hope!)

It really is the triumph of hope over experience every month!!

I'm an idiot.....

 

[xMillie]

We all do it
Even after 4 and half years I still symptom spot on cycles here and there, I've been worse for it since my mc

Symptoms could be something though?
I'm totally unexplained, 2 failed ivf cycles but have had 1 natural bfp (but Mc), don't lose hope xx

The month I got my bfp I was due to go in for a frozen transfer, I kept waiting and waiting for af to show so I could start the meds but never did, finally tested cd34, didn't believe it.

 

[snaggercelli]

We all do it
Even after 4 and half years I still symptom spot on cycles here and there, I've been worse for it since my mc

Symptoms could be something though?
I'm totally unexplained, 2 failed ivf cycles but have had 1 natural bfp (but Mc), don't lose hope xx

The month I got my bfp I was due to go in for a frozen transfer, I kept waiting and waiting for af to show so I could start the meds but never did, finally tested cd34, didn't believe it.

I'm so sorry to hear you had a mc - life really can be cruel, can't it?

Hoping you get another BFP xxx

 

[xMillie]

Thanks, it's not fair at all
Going back to our clinic soon to arrange another transfer but of course hoping it will happen naturally again xx

 

[rainbow.23]

I agree, TTC completely trumps my rational, logical brain. A cool calm exterior, with a mad women inside!

Good luck on starting your IVF. Don't lose that hope!