The nerves have started

[Simoneh00]

Hey ladies, you'll probably wanna just ignore this cause even before I've started writing it I know it's just a way for me to rant and get this out...

I'm starting to get really nervous that something's gonna happen to my baby. I do have reasons, honest, I'm not just a paranoid Mummy.
My first pregnancy with my DD was identical to my mum's pregnancy with me. Down to the cravings, morning sickess, initial bp rise and then pre eclampsia and c section at exactly the same stage.
With my mum's second, a boy, heartbreakingly she had a still born at 27-29weeks. Our pregnancy's this time have been identical too.
I've spoken to a m/w (not my usual one) and she basically told me to "stop being silly". I know i'm probably being stupid but just can't help but worry that it'll be the same for me.
Mum said she should've been started on asprin at the beginning of her pregnancy with Connor and wasn't. I haven't been either. The cause of her babies passing away ( she also had a still born baby girl after Connor) was never really confirmed, so no obvious things I can mention to my m/w or consultant.
I feel like I'm trying not to get attatched till I'm 30 weeks but just can't help sitting some nights rubbing my tummy in tears and begging him to come out healthy when it's time for him.
I think all this has been made slightly worse as my mum recetly had a stroke (she's only 42) and has been reflecting alot. She had the pictures and footprints etc out of her little angels and we showed them to my DD last week. My dad thought she was being insensitive but she just doesnt understand at the moment whats appropriate etc.

God this really is a ramble... Sorry ladies, guess I just wanted to get it all out. Not much I can do to ease my mind till I'm past that stage and maybe then I'll start believing I'll have a baby at the end of this....

 

[Mamafy]

I had a similar thing

My mum lost my sister at aged 6 and I was convinced something similar would happen my daughter as I had my son then another daughter and then my other daughter just like my brother and sister. There was very similar age differences as well It wasn't until I got pregnant with my son that I felt I 'broke the cycle' if you like. Completely stupid but I know exactly what you're feeling

 

[Simoneh00]

I even said to my friend last night " If you get the chace to 'borrow' an ultrasound scanner that'd be great"

 

[laura dec 1988]

aww im sorry your feeling like this hun, when close family members go threw things like this it makes it a lot harder to enjoy your pregnancy.

My sis has had a lot of mis carrages and also still borns....she had a really hard time but now has 2 beautiful children.

Try and think posotive happy thoughts and im sure it will all be fine
And dont feel your rantin my love you know were here to help.

xxx

 

[Rosie's Mummy]

I can't imagine how worried you must be. Your midwife should have been more understanding and realised that this is a genuine concern for you. Would it be worth seeing your GO or asking to see a consultant about this? They might be willing to investigate considering your own history. Please let us know how you go on

 

[Simoneh00]

Thanks Rosie's Mummy
I have my consultant appointment on friday so I'm gonna mention it then. I've heard its common in people with a history of pre eclampsia to have a problem with blood clotting in the cord and to the placenta so might ask him they could keep an eye on it...
I really want to hire a doppler but can only imagine how terrified I'd be if I didn't hear anything!

It's times like this i wish I was a teletubbie. You know the whole tv in the tummy thing, not the fat and brightly coloured