so nervous to be here after my son

[catswiskers]

I will try to not waffle on to much but me and my husband had our 4th child in may just gone, joey was the only one out of the 4 children that we planned to have. The other 3 were happy accidents.
Sadly Joey passed away at 6 days old ����
As you can imagine its been the worse time of our lives and I know we have our others to concentrate on but I just feel so empty after joey died and now i would really like another baby. Not to replace Joey but to fill a part of the massive hole joey has left in our lives.
I really struggle to even look at a baby or a pregnant lady because they've got what I lost and what I'm craving for. I think a new baby would be a light at the end of a very long dark tunnel.
My kids miss their baby brother so much and my 8 year old tends to cry often at school over Joey so I think a baby could well help them come to terms with joeys death.

 

[snowbee]

I'm so sorry to hear what you have been through, it must be incredibly hard for all of you.

 

[tootie]

I am so very sorry for your loss. It is unimaginable xxx wish you a quick bfp lovely xx

 

[catswiskers]

Thank you both xx

 

[dolly26]

Aw catwiskers It's lovely to see you back and just wanted to wish you all the luck in the world and hope your ttc journey is nice and short. Hope joey sends his miracle brother/sister down to you very soon to give you all a little joy xx

 

[catswiskers]

Aw catwiskers It's lovely to see you back and just wanted to wish you all the luck in the world and hope your ttc journey is nice and short. Hope joey sends his miracle brother/sister down to you very soon to give you all a little joy xx

Aw Thanks Dolly. To be honest I feel strange and a bit sad being here because the last time I was here was when I was pregnant with Joey. Absolutely no one knows we are ttc and I will keep it that way. Life has been so hard for us all and the grief is overwhelming! I just want something positive to happen.
I'm due on this week and it feels like my af will be here very soon ☹

 

[fairyprincess]

So sorry to hear about your loss. Good luck with your TTC journey x

 

[MrsS15]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you get a little rainbow baby soon to help ease all your pain! Lots of luck xx

 

[catswiskers]

Thank you. I'm just terrified of history repeating itself. Not only did Joey die but I nearly died too x

 

[Clover]

Oh hun, I remember you and Joey ,how incredibly strong and Brave you are, really hope you get your Rainbow baby very soon, sending you lots of Big hugs

xxxx

 

[Tina18]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss xxxxxxxx thinking of you xxxxxxx

 

[catswiskers]

Thanks girls. I think I'm out this month ☹ I'm due af Thursday and today I've had cramps all day plus ive had what looks like old brown blood...sorry TMI! So I guess that's the start of my monthly but no red blood yet. I thought maybe it could be implantation but I think that's wishful thinking xxx