Oh V, I'm sorry you're feeling so crap!
Like you, I put on weight AFTER birth. It's so frustrating, but being at home with a baby is a total change of lifestyle. And it's changing your lifestyle again that'll help with the weight loss. Don't know about you but I eat so much more being with LO. Stanley starts an apple, I finish it. Don't want him to have a full bag of Quavers, so I share........ It got to supper time today and I wasn't even hungry!
I LOVE how you're a planner. But you sound as if you're already building yourself up for a fall when you start your new plan. That is absolutely NOT going to happen. It can't. You WILL succeed. But you need to sort your head before your waistline.
Have you thought of self-coaching? It can really help motivate and is fab for planners as it involves a lot of fine honing of goals before you kick off. I love Fiona Harrold, her 'ten minute life coach' is invaluable.
You can do this. You owe it to your baby, so you can chase her round! And you owe it to future babies to be fit and healthy. But much more than that, you owe it to yourself to feel happy when you look in the mirror.

We're with you ALL THE WAY! I know how you enjoyed your preggo diary and writing is your forte after all. Would a blog help you on your journey?
Good Luck
