mamapickle
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Hi everyone
I'm new to this so apologies in advance if I get any of the etiquette or terminology wrong. I'm feeling so low and emotional about my secondary infertility and wanted to reach out to you ladies who are suffering the same anxieties and disappointments. I have a very supportive hubby but I think it's hard for him to really understand my emotional turmoil.
I have a wonderful 23month old son for whom I am so eternally grateful and prior to his conception I had a miscarriage so I have been able to get pregnant. We've been TTC for 18 months with no luck and are now being seen at the hospital Fertility clinic. Initial tests have shown no issues with DH but that I have low progesterone (15) and that I'm not ovulating (my cycles are all over the place; 20-35 days). I have been booked in for an HSG but it sounds pretty scary given how many people have said how painful it is. Only once they get the results will they give me Clomid to try and kick start ovulation. Looking at the dates I've been given it's going to be October before I have any chance of getting things moving and I just feel so desperate.
I'm trying everything I can think of- have given up alcohol and caffeine, reduced refined sugar, been taking a whole concotion of herbal supplements, been to acupuncture for the past 7 wks and keeping going despite not really being able to afford it but no sign of ovulation on OPKs for months and months.
I feel full of guilt that I should be so greedy to desperately want a second child when i already have one beautiful boy but I can't control it and the desire has taken over my life. Life is a constant rollercoaster of testing, trying, hoping and then disappointment. It's emotionally exhausting and I think I'm not giving all to DH and DS because of it. I'm fed up with crying. It doesn't help that so many people around me have fallen pregnant with no 2 (some totally unplanned) and it's getting to that point where people keep asking "so, are you not going to have a second?". I just want to shout "desperately and you have no idea how hard I'm trying!". I feel like my stupid body is letting down DH and DS.
Sorry this is long and sounds pretty sorry for myself and I know people are in worse situations. Thank you for sticking with me if you have got this far and if anyone has any suggestions on ways of coping I'd love to hear them.
I'm new to this so apologies in advance if I get any of the etiquette or terminology wrong. I'm feeling so low and emotional about my secondary infertility and wanted to reach out to you ladies who are suffering the same anxieties and disappointments. I have a very supportive hubby but I think it's hard for him to really understand my emotional turmoil.
I have a wonderful 23month old son for whom I am so eternally grateful and prior to his conception I had a miscarriage so I have been able to get pregnant. We've been TTC for 18 months with no luck and are now being seen at the hospital Fertility clinic. Initial tests have shown no issues with DH but that I have low progesterone (15) and that I'm not ovulating (my cycles are all over the place; 20-35 days). I have been booked in for an HSG but it sounds pretty scary given how many people have said how painful it is. Only once they get the results will they give me Clomid to try and kick start ovulation. Looking at the dates I've been given it's going to be October before I have any chance of getting things moving and I just feel so desperate.
I'm trying everything I can think of- have given up alcohol and caffeine, reduced refined sugar, been taking a whole concotion of herbal supplements, been to acupuncture for the past 7 wks and keeping going despite not really being able to afford it but no sign of ovulation on OPKs for months and months.
I feel full of guilt that I should be so greedy to desperately want a second child when i already have one beautiful boy but I can't control it and the desire has taken over my life. Life is a constant rollercoaster of testing, trying, hoping and then disappointment. It's emotionally exhausting and I think I'm not giving all to DH and DS because of it. I'm fed up with crying. It doesn't help that so many people around me have fallen pregnant with no 2 (some totally unplanned) and it's getting to that point where people keep asking "so, are you not going to have a second?". I just want to shout "desperately and you have no idea how hard I'm trying!". I feel like my stupid body is letting down DH and DS.
Sorry this is long and sounds pretty sorry for myself and I know people are in worse situations. Thank you for sticking with me if you have got this far and if anyone has any suggestions on ways of coping I'd love to hear them.
I didnt ovulate for nearly a year because of polycystic ovaries and they gave me good treatment that meant I was able to conceive. There are ways and means and wish you all the very best with ttc. 
