Painful reality

[Lilimoon]

40...hormones are all good for my age. My partner also good. IUI twelve days ago after 6 months non successful natural tries. Waiting for my period (should be today ir tomorrow or as i took clovamid can it delay?) Super strong PMS just from after the IUI. I am now dpo 12. Did a test. Negative. Cramps but less symptoms (less painful breast, less bloated... strange. It feels as when symptoms leave when blood comes and pms are milder). These days waiting checking your body constantly, fearing some symptoms, trying to find online, as crazy, any signs that it worked or not..painful and so unfair. Today my partner lost trust in our ability to have a baby and got tired of it all, deciding to leave me. I don't get the brutality of it. I just wish i got pregnant not to save my relationship but because i am so ready to give birth and raise a child. Niw at the dawn of my 41st I only have some mild cramps and my anger at my period to come. Am so sad.

 

[babylove2016]

Your partner has left you? Because you have so far been unsuccessful? Wow. I’m so sorry lovely. If that’s how he feels then you’re better off trying on your own. I am so so sorry. No one deserves that. Xx

 

[Lilimoon]

Your partner has left you? Because you have so far been unsuccessful? Wow. I’m so sorry lovely. If that’s how he feels then you’re better off trying on your own. I am so so sorry. No one deserves that. Xx

Big fear of commitment and not being able to be a good dad mostly. Difficulty to get pregnant shakes him every month. I lost it all..

 

[Sunflower1]

I'm so so sorry. 6 months trying is not long...even younger people can take way longer. You can still try on your own. I guess better that he leave now than after a baby arrives. How awful for you!

 

[chattychar1990]

Wow you are better off without him, he doesn't sound like someone you would want the father of your child to be.
Like sunflower has said 6 months isn't along time at all.
I wish you all the luck in the world x

 

[miamia]

I am sorry to know your story. However, if life shuts one door, it will open another one.