Hi all,
I don't think I am coping very well.
I was discharged from hospital on Thursday after being told that there were no retained products of pregnancy. The bleeding has almost stopped although I have been told I may continue to bleed lightly for a while.
I am just so sad and lost. My DH is struggling too and wants me to be 'me again'. I don't know if I will ever be me again. I feel like a shadow of myself at the moment. I have been trying to keep myself busy, because he wants me to 'move on' not to be cruel, but because he wants his wife back, but it only happened on Wednesday night (naturally in the end) and I am still reliving the horror of the physical pain I was in when I went to A&E. I don't think I have even begun to deal with the emotional side yet.
I am due to go to see my family today. I have seen my mum already (she has been very worried) and I will see the others today. My sister is 29 weeks' pregnant, so that will be hard, but it's not her fault, and I don't hate her or anything like that. I'm just glad it was me, rather than her. My other sis had a miscarriage at 9 weeks, so she has been a rock this week.
I have been signed off work until the end of the month, which I am glad about because I don't know if I could cope with it at the moment. Does it ever get easier? I am dreading going back. No one knows there (except my manager and HR), but I am worried it will get out.
My DH also wants us to try again once my next period has been and gone, but I am not sure. On the one hand, I will be 34 soon and I desperately want a family, but I couldn't put myself through this again and it feels disrespectful to the little life I have already lost to start again so soon.
I want to get back to my normal physical fitness too. I am normally very active, but the pregnancy knocked me about a bit, so I want to build up my physical strength again. I have been told to take it easy for a while, but how long does it take for physical recovery? I lost a 'significant' amount of blood, so I don't want to overdo it. I just want to feel like myself again. What if I never do?
Sorry...just don't know how to cope x x
I don't think I am coping very well.
I was discharged from hospital on Thursday after being told that there were no retained products of pregnancy. The bleeding has almost stopped although I have been told I may continue to bleed lightly for a while.
I am just so sad and lost. My DH is struggling too and wants me to be 'me again'. I don't know if I will ever be me again. I feel like a shadow of myself at the moment. I have been trying to keep myself busy, because he wants me to 'move on' not to be cruel, but because he wants his wife back, but it only happened on Wednesday night (naturally in the end) and I am still reliving the horror of the physical pain I was in when I went to A&E. I don't think I have even begun to deal with the emotional side yet.
I am due to go to see my family today. I have seen my mum already (she has been very worried) and I will see the others today. My sister is 29 weeks' pregnant, so that will be hard, but it's not her fault, and I don't hate her or anything like that. I'm just glad it was me, rather than her. My other sis had a miscarriage at 9 weeks, so she has been a rock this week.
I have been signed off work until the end of the month, which I am glad about because I don't know if I could cope with it at the moment. Does it ever get easier? I am dreading going back. No one knows there (except my manager and HR), but I am worried it will get out.
My DH also wants us to try again once my next period has been and gone, but I am not sure. On the one hand, I will be 34 soon and I desperately want a family, but I couldn't put myself through this again and it feels disrespectful to the little life I have already lost to start again so soon.
I want to get back to my normal physical fitness too. I am normally very active, but the pregnancy knocked me about a bit, so I want to build up my physical strength again. I have been told to take it easy for a while, but how long does it take for physical recovery? I lost a 'significant' amount of blood, so I don't want to overdo it. I just want to feel like myself again. What if I never do?
Sorry...just don't know how to cope x x