Hi All, spoke to my mother last night and feel a whole lot better. The fact that someone else knows apart from my OH and friend gives me someone to talk to about it,part of the problem because i felt so isolated as OH is away a lot. Naturally she is delighted and told me my fears are due to waiting and wanting a baby for so long and having no symptoms doesn't help. She also said she had no symptoms with any us (me and my 3 other siblings)its perfectly normal and i just take after her. So I am no longer going to look at,read or listen to horror stories as i think it's not helpful to me. nic, and bobbs you guys should do the same. I have started a home study course, going to go swimming,yoga and pilates,and continue working to keep busy. Going to stay with a positive attitude and enjoy. 
thanks guys for al the advise its appreciated
Dx
thanks guys for al the advise its appreciated
Dx
