I've had enough now!!!!!! I know that Miffy is more over due then me and i feel bad for moaning but i'm just done with this whole pregnancy lark!
I dont even know what is upseting me so much tbh, i'm not uncomfortable as such and when i think i can be induced in a week it doesnt feel too bad, i know that no matter what i will have my baby soon and it doesnt matter what day she's born on or how late.
But i'm just finding now i've had enough, last night i really thought things might start, i had pain all evening and was up until 2am again, then i felt sick nearly puked took some gaviscon and slept fine and have no pain today
I'm just SO emotional now, i cant be sleeping well and i dont do well on lack of sleep, i had to stop myself crying today just cos the word baby was said on tv
I find my first reaction is jealousy to those having their babies atm even though i am happy for them.
I'm praying the weekend will take my mind off it, but i hate people asking when she's due cos she really should be here by now, after the weekend things will start moving, i'll see midwife on monday then consultant hopefully wed, and induction fri, but i dont do well waiting for things and if these emotions atm are anything to go by i'm gonna be a wreck, if MW tells me my cervix hasnt changed on monday i think i will actually cry!!!
Right well i feel a little better getting that out now lol, sorry you had to listen to my ramblings. I'm going to go try all the self induction methods i can find now and attempt to get dressed to look pretty for the pub which i dont even wanna go to! AND it's 5 years since i got with Dave today and i feel like i'm gonna put a right downer on it all
I dont even know what is upseting me so much tbh, i'm not uncomfortable as such and when i think i can be induced in a week it doesnt feel too bad, i know that no matter what i will have my baby soon and it doesnt matter what day she's born on or how late.
But i'm just finding now i've had enough, last night i really thought things might start, i had pain all evening and was up until 2am again, then i felt sick nearly puked took some gaviscon and slept fine and have no pain today
I'm just SO emotional now, i cant be sleeping well and i dont do well on lack of sleep, i had to stop myself crying today just cos the word baby was said on tv
I find my first reaction is jealousy to those having their babies atm even though i am happy for them.
I'm praying the weekend will take my mind off it, but i hate people asking when she's due cos she really should be here by now, after the weekend things will start moving, i'll see midwife on monday then consultant hopefully wed, and induction fri, but i dont do well waiting for things and if these emotions atm are anything to go by i'm gonna be a wreck, if MW tells me my cervix hasnt changed on monday i think i will actually cry!!!
Right well i feel a little better getting that out now lol, sorry you had to listen to my ramblings. I'm going to go try all the self induction methods i can find now and attempt to get dressed to look pretty for the pub which i dont even wanna go to! AND it's 5 years since i got with Dave today and i feel like i'm gonna put a right downer on it all