My WTT Journal for baby number 3

[kanga86]

As the title says I am struggling with the fact we aren't going to start ntnp now like we had planned due to finances, I mean really we don't have any sort of time scale on it at the mo and I hate it. I know I should enjoy my two boys that I have but I know that number 3 will complete our little family and then I can put ttc and pregnancy to the back of my mind. It is all just as exciting doing it for a 3rd time and I'm eager to get started. Plus it would be awesome to have a 2012, 2014 and 2016 baby lol

Job wise things aren't great, I started the care work and it just wasn't for me so I've left that. Which obviously doesn't help us money wise. But I do have a temp job for 8hrs at the weekends at my old old job at the leisure centre cleaning. Plus I have an interview for another cleaning job for 10hrs during the week tomorrow so fingers crossed I get that too.

Anyway enough moaning from me, hope everyone else is holding up better with the wait than me lol xx

 

[BabyMaker]

Oh kanga! Big hugs to you!
When we decided to postpone from May to Sept/oct i thought i was ok with it as it made total sense. But when May came i was in bits!! One time I actually burst into tears during sex!!!
But it was because we were meant to be doing it "for real" and it wasnt happening.
However things worked itself out and in hindsight it was the right decision to wait. Your time will come hun and when you start ttc you'll see how everything happens for a reason when it does
Best of luck at your interview today. Fingers crossed!! Xx

 

[BabyMaker]

Ps your boys are adorable!!!!! Xxx

 

[Loula]

I was adamant i was going to have a 2016 baby but not even trying until late 2o16 so looks like a 2017 baby which freaks me out as i hate odd numbers but 2018 is way too far away.
I think its so important to get settles finance wise and job wise just think about how hard its been recently with things.

Unfortunately im all about practicalities. Your 2 boys are a credit to you and waiting a bit longer will make the 3rd more special x

 

[kanga86]

It really does make sense to wait babymaker, I am happy to wait just wish I was getting into the excitement of ttc too. Interview went well and got offered the job and have another interview tomorrow, slowly slowly getting there.

Loula, I know I have had more than enough going on at the mo and I am so happy with my 2 and really there is no need to rush. I'm sure I will appreciate it more when we are all settled job and financially. My practical head is winning I just have this little devil of irresponsibility on my shoulder shouting things out at me lol xx

 

[BabyMaker]

Lol i know all about that little devil on the shoulder. Every night it tells me to eat chocolate
Congratulations on getting that new job things are slowly working itself out for you xx

 

[Loula]

We all that devil in us x

 

[kanga86]

Thank you ladies, I think sometimes getting the frustration out really helps me feel grounded about the situation again. It was the day before AF started when I posted so maybe the hormones weren't helping! Feeling in a good place for today lol

Going to concentrate on enjoying my boys, getting my finances back on track at least for a couple of months lol although I'm sure I will be noticing all the ov symptoms and wishing we were ttc, least I will be able to track my cycle easily by the time we do ttc xx

 

[kanga86]

So now have 3 jobs, 27hrs and £190 per week. So hopefully we can get money back on track feeling hopeful xx

 

[kanga86]

Thinking of making this thread my wtt journal so that i can write down my musings about wtt and not ttc just yet.

Had another job change so doing 2 jobs as one has gone from 10hrs to 20hrs, so doing 20hrs a week but getting £200pw too

Still trying to persuade dh to ttc soon, but not sure it is working lol although I do understand the reasons behind it. I have come to realise that I am desperate to do labour again and think that is the driving force for ttc again so soon. My labour with James was just an amazing experience compared to my emergency section with Harry
And I just want to do it again. Think it is on my mind more as James is 1 in 2.5wks so keep thinking about his labour a year ago. Hoping the feelings die down a bit after his birthday.

I am tracking my cycles ready for ttc and my body is making it very clear, so no need for opks or anything! I have ov'ed cd 21 and cd18 of a 33 and 30 day cycles and with a lp of 12 days. Think of will happen earlier this month as getting signs already at cd10! But my cycles have never been regular and vary from 23-37 days.

Anyone enough for now, I don't expect anyway to read or comment just wanted to write down my feelings xx