lucy1702
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I know I've been posting on here A LOT recently but its the only thing taking my mind off this awful year 
At the beginning of the year I had been having bleeds and in out of hospital every with lily is okay though..
But end of January I lost my great auntie to leukaemia she had been fighting for years so in my state it was horrible (but we didn't get along that well so tbh I know it sounds bad I didn't really mind / care :S as she called me fat and said lily should have been aborted!) anyways then the worst thing I could think of 13th of Feb my great grandad died he was. A huge part of my life he helped bring me up with my mum and grandparents (we all lived on a farm together) losing him just kinda broke me I want so desperatly for him to meet lily was a very said day that day but to top this year of last Tuesday my grandad died suddenly :'( my god I dunno what to do he was like a dad he was so close to me and he was such a huge part of my life!! And lily will never meet him (sat in floads of tears typing this)
I can't cry or show emotion in front of my family else they will think omg is lily okay as she's the only good thing to happen this year and keeping every one sane... But I just feel so deflated and can't cry it out or talk about it I wish lily had her family here but half of its missing sorry for such a long post but I needed to at least vent it out a little eh xxx
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At the beginning of the year I had been having bleeds and in out of hospital every with lily is okay though..
But end of January I lost my great auntie to leukaemia she had been fighting for years so in my state it was horrible (but we didn't get along that well so tbh I know it sounds bad I didn't really mind / care :S as she called me fat and said lily should have been aborted!) anyways then the worst thing I could think of 13th of Feb my great grandad died he was. A huge part of my life he helped bring me up with my mum and grandparents (we all lived on a farm together) losing him just kinda broke me
I want so desperatly for him to meet lily was a very said day that day but to top this year of last Tuesday my grandad died suddenly :'( my god I dunno what to do he was like a dad he was so close to me and he was such a huge part of my life!! And lily will never meet him (sat in floads of tears typing this) I can't cry or show emotion in front of my family else they will think omg is lily okay as she's the only good thing to happen this year and keeping every one sane... But I just feel so deflated and can't cry it out or talk about it I wish lily had her family here but half of its missing
sorry for such a long post but I needed to at least vent it out a little eh xxx Can't see signatures tapatalking
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