went back the doctors today about my piles (only good thing is its taken my mind off the itching) Docotor said she has to look thought they would just take my word for it so was bit embarrest, anyway she took one look and said you poor poor girl, then rang the hospital for advice, she said i have 3 and 1 is purple WTH i thought i only had 1, anyway they would normally operate with them this bad but with me being pregnant they dont want to but if they have to cause they that bad and the pain then they might have to. OMG i didn't realise they could be that serious, i have been given a prescription for some sort of gel which typically chemists have to order in its a very strong local anasthetic that they use when they put in catheters, cant get the stuff till tomorrow. If i feel ill or pain gets any worse i have to go to the hospital, the hospital wanted me in but doctor said she was happy to deal with me and see if this works first, I have to go back to doctors on monday and doctor took my mobile number so she can get in touch with me if needs be. I knew i was in alot of pain but felt bad for moaning, it has been so hard looking after the kids and lifting up my 14 month old, driving has killed and i was thinking I am such a wimp, apparently best thing for me to do is lie down on my side and just rest, yeah right as if I can do that wth 5 kids and a husband who is always at work, MIL has taken the 3 boys tonight and my youngets girl is asleep in bed and eldest is out playing, and husband said you rest while you only have 2, he is a chef in a hotel/pub, and he should have been home about 8.30 still no sign normally i dont mind him having a pint after work but tonight i am fuming thinking he having a drink and i am sitting here in pain, I know I am going to flip on him when he walks through the door when really he is probably thinking she only got the 2 easiest kids i'll have a drink while I can. sorry i feeling a little bit sorry for myself