i posted this in TTC but now realised it should probably be in here - sorry in advance girls!
hey girls, just need to let off a bit of steam - hope you dont mind.
well Danny went back to camp yesterday morning at 5am where he was then going to Newquay on an adventure training with the army.
last night he phoned to say the lads were going out for a few drinks down in the town centre, all was fine he rung me about 7.45pm and said he would ring me when he got back (i am a very big worrier and if he says he is going to call i cannot rest/sleep until he has called - its the same with all my family!) anyway, i woke up about 11pm and he hadnt called so tried to go back to sleep where i woke again at 12am - rang his phone and it was ringing so me, being a worrier, kept ringing and ringing his phone with no answer. i txt his mate to ask if he knew where Danny was which is replied to me he was 'in bed' so i was soooo upset as he didnt ring me i could hardly sleep last night (he knows that i cannot sleep if i dont hear from him) so i finally drifted off to sleep about 2am feeling very sh*tty, and guess what? i had a fooking dream that he had cheated on me and didnt want me anymore, well that was it, 5am i was up again and really, really upset i couldnt get back to sleep and felt very very sh*tty and depressed.
he rung me at 7am this morning and was oblivious to why i was upset so i told him and he said he was sorry but i just feel really emotional today especially after the dream i had, it was awful and feel sick to mystomach, i know he would never cheat on me i woudl bet my life on it, but i still feel really sh*tty. i am sat here crying at work now writing this, i cried when he rang and feel so depressed today PLUS the fact im not pregnant and right at this moment feel like i never will, there are loads of people i know who are getting pregnant at the moment and although i am over the moon for them i feel so crap about myself, Danny wants a baby so much, as do i, but i feel like i am not going to ever be able to give him one and that scares me and upsets me soooo much.
god what a long post - i am ever so sorry to everyone for moaning, i just needed to let off some steam - i have never been this upset before.
sorry
hey girls, just need to let off a bit of steam - hope you dont mind.
well Danny went back to camp yesterday morning at 5am where he was then going to Newquay on an adventure training with the army.
last night he phoned to say the lads were going out for a few drinks down in the town centre, all was fine he rung me about 7.45pm and said he would ring me when he got back (i am a very big worrier and if he says he is going to call i cannot rest/sleep until he has called - its the same with all my family!) anyway, i woke up about 11pm and he hadnt called so tried to go back to sleep where i woke again at 12am - rang his phone and it was ringing so me, being a worrier, kept ringing and ringing his phone with no answer. i txt his mate to ask if he knew where Danny was which is replied to me he was 'in bed' so i was soooo upset as he didnt ring me i could hardly sleep last night (he knows that i cannot sleep if i dont hear from him) so i finally drifted off to sleep about 2am feeling very sh*tty, and guess what? i had a fooking dream that he had cheated on me and didnt want me anymore, well that was it, 5am i was up again and really, really upset i couldnt get back to sleep and felt very very sh*tty and depressed.
he rung me at 7am this morning and was oblivious to why i was upset so i told him and he said he was sorry but i just feel really emotional today especially after the dream i had, it was awful and feel sick to mystomach, i know he would never cheat on me i woudl bet my life on it, but i still feel really sh*tty. i am sat here crying at work now writing this, i cried when he rang and feel so depressed today PLUS the fact im not pregnant and right at this moment feel like i never will, there are loads of people i know who are getting pregnant at the moment and although i am over the moon for them i feel so crap about myself, Danny wants a baby so much, as do i, but i feel like i am not going to ever be able to give him one and that scares me and upsets me soooo much.
god what a long post - i am ever so sorry to everyone for moaning, i just needed to let off some steam - i have never been this upset before.
sorry
to keep you going!
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