Since my mc a week and half ago me and my OH keep falling out. Today is the second time since I mc'd that he said he wants to split up and I should leave.
The first time we had a horrible horrible row about how I'm apparently ungrateful for everything he does for me etc and he told me to get out and move back home (I'm not from the area). I went out as I was upset and an hour later he txt me asking where I was so I went home and he apologised and we got back on track. He starts telling me I'm his best friend and his soulmate etc then last night he went mental at me for something ridiculous and this morn again he told me he is really unhappy and doesn't want to be with me etc etc.
I don't understand how he can keep going from telling me to leave to saying I'm the one to telling me to leave again.
All I can guess is that he is having a hard time due to the mc and so is trying to cause a row over silly things as a way to vent his anger. He refuses to talk about the mc and says we can't sit around crying about it and must move on.
If I get upset about it he goes mad at me so I feel I can't grieve properly. If I start crying & then hear him come home I run into the bathroom and wash my face so he doesn't know I was crying. I'm not coping well, I keep having suicidal thoughts and asked for counselling and was told I have to refer myself.
I love him to bits and I'm terrified of losing him expecially after the mc as it made me realise how much I want a family with him. I don't know what to do.
He keeps pushing me away and shutting me out and this is making me more and more depressed as I feel I have no-one to turn to. I have spoken to my mum about the mc as she experienced quite a lot of mc's herself but what I really need is hug from my OH and the ability to talk through our feelings together.
I don't know what to do. I sat here and packed my suitcase this morning as he told me to move out and not be here when he gets home but I don't want to leave. I feel like I'm all alone.
The first time we had a horrible horrible row about how I'm apparently ungrateful for everything he does for me etc and he told me to get out and move back home (I'm not from the area). I went out as I was upset and an hour later he txt me asking where I was so I went home and he apologised and we got back on track. He starts telling me I'm his best friend and his soulmate etc then last night he went mental at me for something ridiculous and this morn again he told me he is really unhappy and doesn't want to be with me etc etc.
I don't understand how he can keep going from telling me to leave to saying I'm the one to telling me to leave again.
All I can guess is that he is having a hard time due to the mc and so is trying to cause a row over silly things as a way to vent his anger. He refuses to talk about the mc and says we can't sit around crying about it and must move on.
If I get upset about it he goes mad at me so I feel I can't grieve properly. If I start crying & then hear him come home I run into the bathroom and wash my face so he doesn't know I was crying. I'm not coping well, I keep having suicidal thoughts and asked for counselling and was told I have to refer myself.
I love him to bits and I'm terrified of losing him expecially after the mc as it made me realise how much I want a family with him. I don't know what to do.
He keeps pushing me away and shutting me out and this is making me more and more depressed as I feel I have no-one to turn to. I have spoken to my mum about the mc as she experienced quite a lot of mc's herself but what I really need is hug from my OH and the ability to talk through our feelings together.
I don't know what to do. I sat here and packed my suitcase this morning as he told me to move out and not be here when he gets home but I don't want to leave. I feel like I'm all alone.
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