Four months on and I am STILL not over it.

[Happybunny]

Hellooo,

Just got in after my first psychotherapy session. Looks like it is going to be really helpful (thanks to Happy-chick for suggesting it!! )

My therapist was really lovely. It took me all of about 20 minutes before I had a huge emotional outpouring about my lost babies. It is the only about the third time I have had a BIG cry since the last one happened. I feel better for it. My therapist concluded that I haven't grieved properly, and, I hadn't really realised it, he was right. I had to go on holiday with my pregnant sister four days after I mc and put on a brave face so she wouldn't feel guilty. Then I went into hyper anxiety mode and then just flew back into work and routine to get over it.

The last few months of TTC have been stressful, I don't think I was really properly healed. I am holding off of trying again for a little bit until I feel better and have grieved properly.

Well, sorry for babbling, just felt the need to splurge, it helps me make sense of my thoughts

Michelle
xxxxx

 

[Baileysmummy]

I think your doing the right thing holding off for a while until you can come to terms with what has hapened.. you will get there here have these hugs for now though, im thinking of you

 

[happy-chick]

Michelle,

So glad the therapy helped you, it has changed my life in the past given some time.

I think you are right to hold off TTC for a little while and concentrate on getting yourself better & grieving properly, its so hard to grieve when you feel like everyone is expecting you to be back to normal so you put on a brave face.

Keep at the therapy & stay positive. I know you can get through this, you are a very strong person & deserve to be happy.

U know where I am if ever u wanna talk to me about anything.

Take care hun, Im really proud of you.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[valentine]

Hi HappyBunny,

I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so low honey - I really feel for you and wish there was more I could do to help? Please let me know if there ever is anything.

I think that this process will be really helpful for you and I hope you are still looking forward to your holiday in the summer.

I just know that you will have a wee bundle of joy to cuddle in no time at all, but I know that's not much comfort when you haven't properley grieved for your lost angels.

You are one of the posters I look forward to seeing most on this forum - you have been an amazing support to me, even during your own difficult times and I just wanted to let you know I am here for you and thinking of you.

Take care honey

Valentine xxx

 

[jenna]

so sorry for your loss.

Hope you feel better hun.

 

[xJodieLoux]

Just wanted to give you these

 

[MissGobby]

 

[tracey 2]

im sorry i have been around hun but in a way im pleased it all went well for your session and im sorry you are still finding it so hard it will take time but all will be ok

you have my number so anytime you need a chat or anything im here

 

[Charlotte & Emily]

im always here if you need to chat hun

 

[Ginnymarie]

so soory ive not been online

been having a mare with bt and sky, up and running now

i think i am feeling a bit the same as you michelle, ive had some big cries and not ready to ttc just yet

msm me if you need to chat or talk to my mum she will always be there to listen xx

 

[Happybunny]

awww thanks honey
I hope you're feeling ok, you've been really busy...it does take your mind off feeling sad, but it doesn't get rid of the sadness
I am always here too if you need someone to chat too
Michelle
xxxx