Feeling really disappointed with myself :-(

[Krystal]

Wasn't sure where to put this and I apologise in advance cos it's a bit of moan.

Throughout my pregnancy i'd set my heart on a waterbirth, it was something in my heart that I really wanted. Got to hospital and pool was free unfortunately at that point I became a wuss and couldn't handle the pain, I begged them for an epidural . Got moved to a different room without the pool, everything happened fast, Jack's heartrate dropped so they had to break my waters then 20 mins later he was out so in the end i managed with only gas and air and no epidural

I'm really disappointed in myself that I chickened out and didn't get the water birth. I know I should be happy that I had a fairly good birth experience and I'm determined next time to get the waterbirth i'd dreamed of, especially now I know I can do it with the gas and air. I often wonder if i'd have gotten in the water maybe his heartrate wouldn't have dropped as i'd have been in a better position and he could have turned easier (back to back) I feel envious when I hear other people talk about their own waterbirth and think I should of been braver.

Sorry girls for the moan, sure your prob bored of the post by now Just felt I needed to get of my chest then put it behind me, I got a gorgeous baby boy all healthy and i didn't need stitches etc so i should be grateful i know.

anyway thanks for reading

 

[trixipaws]

if it makes u feel any better i didnt get mine either. i had a home water birth but i was in the pool fully dilated and i was crying and wouldnt push and the MWs decided i would be better lay down so they took me upstairs and i gave birth on the bed. and i was better there- but i do feel a little bit disappointed i didnt do it in the water. theres always next time for us!

 

[Krystal]

definately next time on since we'll be starting TTC in August i may not have too long to wait

 

[jools221181]

Awww hun as Midna says you have to do what feels right at the time and just take each moment as it comes!

and as the others say, there's always next time!

 

[valentine]

Aww Sweetcheeks, don't beat yourself up - you did what was right at the time and had a good birth anyway - just leave the thoughts here and move on.

Valentine Xxx

 

[zebrastripes]

I know what you mean Sweetcheeks-though for me I feel really guilty,and dissapointed,that I didn't get to give birth at all..technically I was so annoyed I had to have a section-but it's all over and done with now so there's no point worrying

 

[cloud9]

I also wanted a water birth but couldn't as i was induced so had to be monitored.
The main thing is you did what was right for you at the time.
i wanted to gi ve birth with just gas and air but i also thought i couldn't cope anymore but when i was checked i was ready to push so could see end in sight i couldn't imagien been in thatg pain for so long

you have to be flexible at birth...and you were

 

[amzhunny]

Awww hun dont feel bad, things never turn out how you wish...i wish i could go into natural labour but i never can because of my diabetes problems something i will always miss. Ambers birth wasnt nice and i blame myself because of the problems i have but at the end of the day you have a gorgeous baby and TTC in Aug you go girl....OH wants to after wedding not sure though.