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Hi all
Just wanted to sound you all out.
I am feeling a bit down at the moment, I'll explain why.
Firstly, I love breastfeeding my baby - the actual philosophy of it and the whole nuturing/goodness side of it. (this is where the guilt comes in!)
My main problem is this. I am very large chested. I am only 5ft 1, have gone back to size 12 (and still losing about 1lb a week) after my c section 7 weeks ago but my boobs have remained huge. I am currently wearing a 34L bra (on tightest hook for back) but this is too small on the cups, but I can't buy a bigger cup size anywhere. They just don't make them.
Anyway, the problems I am having are the following:
1. Quite bad back ache that I didnt have before. It is across my shoulder blades and neck - I think this may be cos of my boob size as my sister, who has had a reduction, always complained of this (that's why she had it done) and surgeon told her this was common complaint of large busted women and would give her further back problems in time.
My boobs feel so heavy all the time, and even more uncomfortable when they fill up.
2. Maternity bra I am wearing offers NO support. If I tighten straps the cup just scrunches my boobs up and I am worried about mastitis let alone the 4 boob look!! And it's just downright uncomfortable wearing a bra that's too small.
3. Severe lack of clothes available to wear, not for vanity although let's face it, if you look good you feel good and vice versa, but for comfort more than anything. I have a whole wardrobe of clothes in loft, bagged up, which I grew out of when pregnant and obviously haven't got back into them. But I have to wear either baggy t-shirts to accomodate boobs, or I bought 3 tops (size 20) from H and M few weeks ago which I constantly wear with maternity jeans.
I think this is making me feel very bad (self esteem wise) as I just feel so uncomfortable in anything and dread going out.
I tried a coat on the other day, well I tried 3 on and they all looked god awful as my boobs were massive and just hung there near my waist and I just wanted to cry. I can't even wear an underwire as I don't want to harm milk ducts etc, and will I even get one that will fit??
Well I have been thinking about stopping breast feeding, but feel so guilty about it. Mainly because I feel selfish stopping just to comfort myself and baby will miss out on my milk. But also because my mum is so PRO breast feeding and always goes on about women who bottle feed are lazy and take the easy way out. I tried to tell her of my discomfort when she came over the other day and she said well that's just what you have to do, you have to put up with it.
Then I felt really guilty and vain!!
My OH would support me whatever I decided to do, he understands how uncomfortable I would sometimes feel about my bust BEFORE I got pregnant (32F/G, and believe me it is a burden despite ther people saying oh you're so lucky, it is hard to get clothes/bras/swimming costumes etc. without paying loads of money), and certainly has a lot of smpathy now. He has also said he'll support me getting a reduction if I want one (I will give it a year from when Imogen was born to allow for body to recover and stabilise) even tho he is a BIG fan of big boobs ... bless him. He just wants me to be happy. He has said he thinks I have done well to breast feed LO for 7 weeks, and have given her a good start in life.
At times I feel like crying as I am so uncomfortable but then the guilt takes over, esp. when LO is feeding from me and I think I am being selfish.
There's also the expense of buying new clothes. We are on a budget as OH is a student and I am bread winner so we have had to save money to make sure I could take 6 months off to be with baby. My bras cost me in excess of 20 quid each and already the two nursing bras I have are getting worn, one is torn at the front where it is stretched.
Or is it all hormones? or bit of both. I am just starting to want to go out socially and we are going on a mini holiday to Cornwall soon to visit OH's family and friends - I am panicking as I only have 3 outfits and don't feel great in them anyway.
I would like to hear from you about what you would do if you were in my position, or indeed if you have been in my position???
Thanks girls.
Just wanted to sound you all out.
I am feeling a bit down at the moment, I'll explain why.
Firstly, I love breastfeeding my baby - the actual philosophy of it and the whole nuturing/goodness side of it. (this is where the guilt comes in!)
My main problem is this. I am very large chested. I am only 5ft 1, have gone back to size 12 (and still losing about 1lb a week) after my c section 7 weeks ago but my boobs have remained huge. I am currently wearing a 34L bra (on tightest hook for back) but this is too small on the cups, but I can't buy a bigger cup size anywhere. They just don't make them.
Anyway, the problems I am having are the following:
1. Quite bad back ache that I didnt have before. It is across my shoulder blades and neck - I think this may be cos of my boob size as my sister, who has had a reduction, always complained of this (that's why she had it done) and surgeon told her this was common complaint of large busted women and would give her further back problems in time.
My boobs feel so heavy all the time, and even more uncomfortable when they fill up.
2. Maternity bra I am wearing offers NO support. If I tighten straps the cup just scrunches my boobs up and I am worried about mastitis let alone the 4 boob look!! And it's just downright uncomfortable wearing a bra that's too small.
3. Severe lack of clothes available to wear, not for vanity although let's face it, if you look good you feel good and vice versa, but for comfort more than anything. I have a whole wardrobe of clothes in loft, bagged up, which I grew out of when pregnant and obviously haven't got back into them. But I have to wear either baggy t-shirts to accomodate boobs, or I bought 3 tops (size 20) from H and M few weeks ago which I constantly wear with maternity jeans.
I think this is making me feel very bad (self esteem wise) as I just feel so uncomfortable in anything and dread going out.
I tried a coat on the other day, well I tried 3 on and they all looked god awful as my boobs were massive and just hung there near my waist and I just wanted to cry. I can't even wear an underwire as I don't want to harm milk ducts etc, and will I even get one that will fit??
Well I have been thinking about stopping breast feeding, but feel so guilty about it. Mainly because I feel selfish stopping just to comfort myself and baby will miss out on my milk. But also because my mum is so PRO breast feeding and always goes on about women who bottle feed are lazy and take the easy way out. I tried to tell her of my discomfort when she came over the other day and she said well that's just what you have to do, you have to put up with it.
Then I felt really guilty and vain!!
My OH would support me whatever I decided to do, he understands how uncomfortable I would sometimes feel about my bust BEFORE I got pregnant (32F/G, and believe me it is a burden despite ther people saying oh you're so lucky, it is hard to get clothes/bras/swimming costumes etc. without paying loads of money), and certainly has a lot of smpathy now. He has also said he'll support me getting a reduction if I want one (I will give it a year from when Imogen was born to allow for body to recover and stabilise) even tho he is a BIG fan of big boobs ... bless him. He just wants me to be happy. He has said he thinks I have done well to breast feed LO for 7 weeks, and have given her a good start in life.
At times I feel like crying as I am so uncomfortable but then the guilt takes over, esp. when LO is feeding from me and I think I am being selfish.
There's also the expense of buying new clothes. We are on a budget as OH is a student and I am bread winner so we have had to save money to make sure I could take 6 months off to be with baby. My bras cost me in excess of 20 quid each and already the two nursing bras I have are getting worn, one is torn at the front where it is stretched.
Or is it all hormones? or bit of both. I am just starting to want to go out socially and we are going on a mini holiday to Cornwall soon to visit OH's family and friends - I am panicking as I only have 3 outfits and don't feel great in them anyway.
I would like to hear from you about what you would do if you were in my position, or indeed if you have been in my position???
Thanks girls.