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[Lozzaste]

I've felt positive, I've felt angry, I've felt disappointed and at times I've felt happy.
History: one DD, 19 months. Almost lost her numerous times due to brain abnormalities, were told to abort her at 21 weeks. She is fine now apart from the fact she refuses to walk. She is the absolute light of my life, I love her beyond words
We started trying when my little one was 3 months old, got pregnant second try, mc at 11.5 weeks. Bad but get over-able. We got pregnant again second try, mc again at 11.5. Physically horrific but we got over it (ish) and moved on to try again. That was November and we are still trying, doing nothing differently, yet every month I'm staring at a BFN.
I have my moments when I feel fine but I also have my moments when I just want to bloody scream! Especially when I see all the ladies having babies when next week would have been the last due date! Why me! Why us! Why can't it just be simple?
Rant over, sorry xx

 

[LikeJohnnYoko]

Tell me about it hon It's so hard as to an outside view these things often look easier than they are and it's natural to feel frustrated and jealous.

I see so many of my friends and family having babies and such and well, here we are, tried and got nowhere now waiting pretty much indefinitely.

If wishes were what fuelled the world....

 

[Lozzaste]

If wishes fuelled the world we would have about fifty kids each That would be fine with me, they are all miracles!
Thank you for your kind words, much appreciated.
It's hard, and I swing like a pendulum from being fine to be angry, no in between. It's an all consuming process and one (as you say) people just don't get unless they have been there xx
Hope you're ok and hope you get your BFP soon xxxx

 

[mylullaby]

Jumping in with a little point re: refusing to walk. My friend's LO never crawled, she bum-shuffled. Because of this, she could see the world around her and had little inclination to get up of her ass! She decided to walk just before she was 3! I just don't think she ever felt the need HV told her to be patient and it will happen when she's ready... and she was right.

 

[Lozzaste]

Thank you - I had forgotten about this thread! Crazy looking back on it, mind you, it wasn't that long ago
I got my BFP and I'm now almost 7wks. I am pessimistic and optimistic, in the sense that I'm hopeful yet I am prepared, unlike my last loss when I thought "there is NO WAY that can happen again". It did and it could again.
As for my little one, we have some serious progress with walking, almost there! lots of small steps but not what I would say is "proper walking yet" She's only 23 months so she has a while until she's three xx

 

[mylullaby]

Yeah, she has plenty of time. If she's showing good signs then it won't be much longer! Congratulations on your pregnancy. X

 

[LikeJohnnYoko]

Thank you - I had forgotten about this thread! Crazy looking back on it, mind you, it wasn't that long ago
I got my BFP and I'm now almost 7wks. I am pessimistic and optimistic, in the sense that I'm hopeful yet I am prepared, unlike my last loss when I thought "there is NO WAY that can happen again". It did and it could again.
As for my little one, we have some serious progress with walking, almost there! lots of small steps but not what I would say is "proper walking yet" She's only 23 months so she has a while until she's three xx

Congrats on your BFP, wishing you sticky vibes and the best for this pregnancy.

 

[Lozzaste]

Thank you! Xx