well, there are days when I'm fed up with the whole being pregnant thing and when I just want my body back to myself. I'm fed up of moaning & groaning every time I have to bend over, with my maternity trousers falling down like a man's with a huge beer belly and with wearing the same clothes that I have for months etc. (I mean, I do change them daily, but I have a limited maternity wardrobe!), but I'm so worried about coping with a newborn that I'm almost happy to wait.
I realise how selfish I've become. I've got two other kids, but they're old enough to get up and get dressed in the morning, get their own cereal and amuse themselves for much of the day. I can have a bath/shower and watch 'Corrie' in peace...there's going to be a lot less of all that kind of stuff once the baby's here!
Then again, the sooner s/he is born, the sooner s/he can grow up a bit. Am I the only one who doesn't like the total dependence of newborns? I think other people's babies look adorable, it's just that I prefer older babies/children (preferable from about 3 years onwards). As you can't have them at that age (unless you adopt), having a newborn is just a case of "needs must" for me.
Perhaps I'll be different this time? I was on such a high after my 4D scan that I couldn't sleep. Maybe I'll be more chilled out this time and better able to enjoy my baby? I hope so!
I'm also dreading the labour. I had such a horrendous time first time around that it's starting to become a creeping fear (although I'm trying my best not to even think about it).
I do agree though - it's beginning to feel like forever (or at least the longest pregnancy ever). I'm just trying to enjoy my last few weeks of (relative) freedom.
