disappointed

[Happybunny]

Well, despite saying we were goint to ease ourselves back into TTC after our mc...this month has become a frenzied blur of extreme symptom spotting and misplaced optimism. I jsut can't help myslef, I so want my baby.

AF made an apprearance tonight feeling a little bewildered because usually we catch relatively easily...i am scared that mc has made me infertile or something. i know it sounds mad, but I think about silly things.

feeling delicate too because OH's cousin, single, jobless with myriad of problems gave birth yesterday after one night stand. I do feel happy for her, almost sorry really because she has very little support. but i can't help thinking 'why not me?'

Looking on the bright side i suppose...more wine for a few more weeks, lots more BD in our newly ignited BD life and at least i wont be 27 weeks preggers when going on my jollies.

Now how do I reset this ticker?
M
xx

 

[chellieboo]

aww....sorry hun.

 

[Gem & Leland]

sorry hun

just needd to biuld a new ticker

 

[mags]

Dear Happybunny,
Although I don't know you I want to tell you I understand and sympathise with you with all my heart. I hope you won't mind me sharing a little of my story with you...I remember the pain I went through when I lost my precious little "Riddler" at 8 weeks back in May 2003. It seemed EVERYWHERE I looked someone was pregnant, and it seemed to me that a lot of these women didn't deserve the precious little beings growing inside them. I worked in an off licence and I can't tell you the amount of pregnant women I saw buying cigarettes, booze even, and pregnant 'rough' (that's as kind as I can be) mothers screaming abuse at their 3 or 4 older children... And I was thinking of relocting to Watford (Eastenders Land!) as it seemed EVERY woman on that show got pregnant from a one night stand! It was (and is!) SO unfair when there are women like us in this world who want our babies with all our hearts and would provide such a welcoming and loving home and life for them, and yet we struggle.

There is a happy ending to my story because a year later I did have my little girl (now 2 yrs and 3 months old) after completely giving up hope. Honestly, hubby and I only bd one day that month and I was so convinced that I was unable to get pregnant that when I realised I was late, the first thing my mind suspected was cancer or something horrible--(that's the way I think!) not pregnancy. My mother did always say that good things come to those who wait and she said I would have my baby. That was so hard to hear when I was down in the dumps and so very depressed--I didn't believe her, but she was right after all.

Now I have a new life, a new hubby and we are TTC. I want lots of babies! My little girl is growing up so fast and I crave a precious little one to hold so much that it's actually bringing tears to my eyes as I type. I'm praying for all of you out there and I hope all our dreams come true.

x Mags x

 

[ToriElla]

i'm sorry your af came. hope you get a BFP soon, lots of baby dust

 

[Happybunny]

aww thanks for the messages. your story is lovely mags...it certainly does give me hope

 

[sarah113]

Sorry AF came hun!!!

 

[valentine]

Hi Michelle,

I'm sorry honey - but I'm sure that you'll catch really soon and you'll be in a happy stage of 2nd tri (not getting too uncomfy yet) by the time you head off on your holidays in the summer.

I'm thinking of you.

Love

Valentine xxx

 

[Mildly]

sorry your AF came

good luck for next month

 

[MissGobby]

im sorry she got you hun

 

[sparky]

soo sorry she got you hon, really had a good feeling for you. sending you loads of baby dust!

 

[rachie29]

damn that witch.... sorry she came hun

 

[fothers]

sorry she came

 

[*saulino*]

Hi

Sorry AF came hun Wishing you loads of baby dust for next month
Katrina