stamfordgal
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Hello, all.
In spite of PCOS, I have had one healthy term-pregnancy (for which I am grateful) and just experienced a miscarriage. I was delighted to find out that I was unexpectedly expecting and, after seeing a healthy heartbeat twice, went in for another ultrasound on Christmas Eve to get a firm date (I was rounding 11 weeks) to gleefully announce to my family as well as my husband's.
It was not meant to be. To my OB's surprise as well as mine, there was no longer a heartbeat. I had to carry the deceased baby until 27 December, when I had a D&C.
I feel completely devastated. The loss of the pregnancy was difficult, finding out on Christmas Eve was worse and being completely alone to receive the news was gut-wrenching. I'm not optimistic about my chances of conceiving again due to the fact that I don't have cycles and am reeling. I find myself unable to eat (literally have gotten through the last week on wine, coffee and tea), sleep (4h a night, filled with nightmares) and am functioning at a minimum (2 yo daughter is at my parents' place - they remain unaware as to what happened).
Does it get better? I'm hesitant to start an antidepressant as I hope to conceive again in the near future (God-willing). Any insight would be appreciated.
In spite of PCOS, I have had one healthy term-pregnancy (for which I am grateful) and just experienced a miscarriage. I was delighted to find out that I was unexpectedly expecting and, after seeing a healthy heartbeat twice, went in for another ultrasound on Christmas Eve to get a firm date (I was rounding 11 weeks) to gleefully announce to my family as well as my husband's.
It was not meant to be. To my OB's surprise as well as mine, there was no longer a heartbeat. I had to carry the deceased baby until 27 December, when I had a D&C.
I feel completely devastated. The loss of the pregnancy was difficult, finding out on Christmas Eve was worse and being completely alone to receive the news was gut-wrenching. I'm not optimistic about my chances of conceiving again due to the fact that I don't have cycles and am reeling. I find myself unable to eat (literally have gotten through the last week on wine, coffee and tea), sleep (4h a night, filled with nightmares) and am functioning at a minimum (2 yo daughter is at my parents' place - they remain unaware as to what happened).
Does it get better? I'm hesitant to start an antidepressant as I hope to conceive again in the near future (God-willing). Any insight would be appreciated.