trixipaws
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some of u might kno b4 i found out i was pg i used to use drugs A LOT, nearly every day for years. the pregnancy was a complete surprise and i'm proudly clean-living ever since then.
but i'm worried about those first 6 weeks b4 i knew- my friend was here earlier and she told me another one of her friends (i kno the girl as well but not well enough to call her my own friend) who gave birth in march, is having problems with her baby is very poorly- she cant see and has abscesses (sp?) on her brain
like me, she was doing stuff still during the very early weeks b4 she found out she was pg, and although no-one can say her babys sick BECAUSE of it, i cant help thinking its a possibility and also that i may end up with problems like that too
the last 2 nights i'v had dreams that i'm at a party or just out somewhere and i'll do some coke or smoke a joint even tho i kno i'm pg, and i feel so guilty and horrified afterwards- i'd NEVER do that in real-life
sorry theres nothing really any1 can do or say i just needed to get this off my chest, its not the sort of thing i can go and tell my mum or my MW about coz i'm ashamed
but i'm worried about those first 6 weeks b4 i knew- my friend was here earlier and she told me another one of her friends (i kno the girl as well but not well enough to call her my own friend) who gave birth in march, is having problems with her baby is very poorly- she cant see and has abscesses (sp?) on her brain
like me, she was doing stuff still during the very early weeks b4 she found out she was pg, and although no-one can say her babys sick BECAUSE of it, i cant help thinking its a possibility and also that i may end up with problems like that too
the last 2 nights i'v had dreams that i'm at a party or just out somewhere and i'll do some coke or smoke a joint even tho i kno i'm pg, and i feel so guilty and horrified afterwards- i'd NEVER do that in real-life
sorry theres nothing really any1 can do or say i just needed to get this off my chest, its not the sort of thing i can go and tell my mum or my MW about coz i'm ashamed