Lilmisshopeful
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I know it's all down to af arriving today but its really thrown me off track. I was doing so well too but now I'm feeling crap. Oh is back to work to so alone for 4 days. My daughter is here but I have to pretend to be fine but inside I'm dying again. Back to the its not fair stage. I'm also feeling guilty for not crying so much as I was before. I know I have to move on with life but don't want Charlie to think I don't care any more cos I do. If I cry I feel guilty not being there for my daughter and if I don't I feel guilty to Charlie. Damned if I do damned if I don't either way I feel like crap. I want to scream why me but I'd rather it was me than someone who wasn't already blessed with a child but it still sucks so bad. And my daughter goes to uni on the 24th so kinda feel like I'm losing her too. She doesn't need me like she used to so feel useless now. No purpose. I'm a mummy with no child to mother. Arghhhh sorry for the ramble blooming pmt :/ and if you got this far in this rambled mess lol hope your ok xxx