Im sorry ppl but i think this sums it up - and i will b back just gimme some time.......
Well if i haven't seemed myself on msn, forums or what ever, i will now explain the reason why.
I have recently been seeing a councilor to help with my issues I have at the moment.
These issues include,
- my uprbringing in general,
- PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder)
- PND (post natal depression)
I have my good days but bad days seem to be a more realistic description.
I have rather disturbed thoughts at the moment, i will not list these as they are really disturbing and even i cant face to write them down.
To be honest im really struggling with life at the moment, i rather be on my own, in my own space, talking to no one.
I led my childhood alone in my bedroom listening to music so i guess in a way im doing what i know best.
Because of my issues my marriage is now beggining to fail and thats making me even more depressed.
Depression is taking over me, like a nasty virus and i dont know how to get rid of it.
So if u r on my msn list, and i havent been talking recently, dont take offense its just best i dont talk to anyone much at the moment becuase i usually end up in rows and arguments i cant and won't win.
I feel quite weak in myself and ive even had those suicidal thoughts back again.
I just think its best i sort myself out while i feel like this.
I hope you all can understand my reasoning - and dont stay mad at me for long.
The old Sonia's in there, shes just hiding at the moment cos life is tough.
Well if i haven't seemed myself on msn, forums or what ever, i will now explain the reason why.
I have recently been seeing a councilor to help with my issues I have at the moment.
These issues include,
- my uprbringing in general,
- PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder)
- PND (post natal depression)
I have my good days but bad days seem to be a more realistic description.
I have rather disturbed thoughts at the moment, i will not list these as they are really disturbing and even i cant face to write them down.
To be honest im really struggling with life at the moment, i rather be on my own, in my own space, talking to no one.
I led my childhood alone in my bedroom listening to music so i guess in a way im doing what i know best.
Because of my issues my marriage is now beggining to fail and thats making me even more depressed.
Depression is taking over me, like a nasty virus and i dont know how to get rid of it.
So if u r on my msn list, and i havent been talking recently, dont take offense its just best i dont talk to anyone much at the moment becuase i usually end up in rows and arguments i cant and won't win.
I feel quite weak in myself and ive even had those suicidal thoughts back again.
I just think its best i sort myself out while i feel like this.
I hope you all can understand my reasoning - and dont stay mad at me for long.
The old Sonia's in there, shes just hiding at the moment cos life is tough.