The time has come...or has it?

[Bloom]

I have decided to stop bf

I have decided to go onto 2009 as a bottle feeding mummy

Its been one of the hardest things ive ever done but its one of my biggest achievements and im very proud to of got this far.

Its been a hard decision and one which ive been thinking about a lot recently but dd is not really a massive booby baby and i would rather stop now than got through the heartache of being rejected. Im still very upset that its come to end but she loves her bottles so i think it would be selfish for me to carry on. It brings me to tears just thinking about and i cant believe im crying over it. But anyway i just wanted to write it down now i feel it has some closure.

Im going to give her a last feed later today and take some more pics.

Just wanted to say thank you to you all (especially Valentine) for all your support, advice and pick me ups as without you lot i wouldnt of got this far as i had quite a few hurdles to overcome but have come out the otherside a much stronger person with a huge admiration for long term bf's its not easy.

God i bawling like a baby now so will leave it at

I look forward to booby feeding the next baby

I have no idea how many bottles i have to be giving her or how much but im sure it will work itself out. Plus do i have to keep sterlising?

 

[LisaJ1986]

You've done so so well! You must be so proud of yourself!
The rare bottle i try and give Angel isn't sterilised! I just wash in very hot water.

 

[valentine]

Aw honey, you nearly made me cry - what a lovely heartfelt post.

It definitely sounds like you are making the right decision for you both, I'm proud of you for being able to make that decision - enjoy your last feed, its the one thing I would change about the whole process - for me, having a daughter that self weaned (and the accompanying rejection I felt) was really tough at the time.

You have done brilliantly Bloom, I am in awe of people who battle through - I had a much easier journey so still don't have a clue what you and others go/went through.

Lots and lots of love - please don't beat yourself up about this - you have done brilliantly.

Valentine Xxx

 

[ninjawomble]

You have done amazingly hun, you should be extremely proud of yourself.
Welcome to the bottlefeeding mummy club

 

[Bloom]

Thinking about it maybe stopping cold turkey is not the best thing

Will have to reduce feeds down over the next couple of days how long do you think i takes to dry up.

 

[Bloom]

Ive just given dd a feed and now im even more confused about what i want to do i was so sure this morning i wanted to stop oh my heads a mess. She had a really good cuddly feed it was almost like she was telling me she did love the boob

Im not expecting anyone to reply because i cant make my mind up im just so worried that if i stop and then regret it, it will be too late.

I hate being a Libra i can never make a decision and stick to it

I seem to get like every 3 months where i want to stop but once i get past the blip im fine again whats wrong with me

 

[beanie]

bloom why not forget about making any major decision and just take it a feed at a time. If you want to give her a bottle then do that but then if you want to gibve her a boob do it that way for that feed and see how you feel in a bit. I just think making an absolute decisio whilst you feel so mixed up might not be the right thing

 

[charlie84]

Aww hun

To me it seems as if you maybe dont want to stop quite so suddenly so maybe just carry on and reduce the feeds down at a suitable pace for you. I wouldnt recommend cold turkey as you can get engorged possibly get mastitis which is horrible. Plus dont know if its the same for most women but i know when i get engorged (rare moment) i am more emotional and if you couple this up with you being unsure of stopping it may make it harder for you.

You have doen fab to get this far, you just do what is right for you

 

[Bloom]

bloom why not forget about making any major decision and just take it a feed at a time. If you want to give her a bottle then do that but then if you want to gibve her a boob do it that way for that feed and see how you feel in a bit. I just think making an absolute decisio whilst you feel so mixed up might not be the right thing

I think thats what i will do

Im such a pain i know posting my bf coming to an end post then changing my mind im suprised you lot put up with me.

 

[keli]

I think i'd find it hard to 'decide' whether to stop BF so i'm planning on Cooper self weaning. The only thing i could suggest is writing a pro's and con's list maybe? I dunno i understand what you mean about if you regret it later, then it being too late. I think you shouldn't be too hard on yourself with the making the decision maybe just go with it for the time being. I don't think its a good idea just to stop i think its recommended to drop a feed per week to stop getting engorged and stop from getting mastitus. Good luck in whatever you decide xxx

 

[Squiglet]

Oooo don't stop all of a sudden if you are giving 3 or more feeds a day...you'll get sore boobies and be even more upset. With Tia I had to stop all of a sudden. But tbh she wasn't a big booby baby either. However, I do remember having engorged boobs for a few days and it was really uncomfortable.

As for sterilising. Don't bother. Just wash in very hot soapy water and poor boiling water into the bottles to make up the feeds

But remember a lot of mothers don't even try to bf'd so you've done amazingly well to get where you are...and your baby will always be grateful of that

 

[beanie]

how are you feeling today hun?

 

[lisa&alex]

glad you bumped this beanie.. was meaning to post asking how you were..xx

 

[Bloom]

Im feeling good im still a bf i just cannot bring myself to stop

I posted in my first post saying how i don't think i could cope with the rejection when the time comes but i can't cope with taking the choice away from her either i thought i could but i think saying and doing are two different things. Yesterday i was so sure i was going to quit and then in reality i couldnt

So im carrying on for now i feel silly for saying i was going to stop and posting this now but i was so sure thats what i wanted. Im just going to go week by week.

I have found bf so hard and so draining mentally and physically that i get real lows like this and then it passes.

 

[beanie]

Im feeling good im still a bf i just cannot bring myself to stop

I posted in my first post saying how i don't think i could cope with the rejection when the time comes but i can't cope with taking the choice away from her either i thought i could but i think saying and doing are two different things. Yesterday i was so sure i was going to quit and then in reality i couldnt

So im carrying on for now i feel silly for saying i was going to stop and posting this now but i was so sure thats what i wanted. Im just going to go week by week.

I have found bf so hard and so draining mentally and physically that i get real lows like this and then it passes.

I can empathise. I was feeling really low about breastfeeding last night, then today she has had a great feed and fell asleep and I just looked at her and said to OH how can I even think of stopping - though I know later on I might be saying how hard I find it. Its so blooming emotional.

 

[Squiglet]

Im feeling good im still a bf i just cannot bring myself to stop

I posted in my first post saying how i don't think i could cope with the rejection when the time comes but i can't cope with taking the choice away from her either i thought i could but i think saying and doing are two different things. Yesterday i was so sure i was going to quit and then in reality i couldnt

So im carrying on for now i feel silly for saying i was going to stop and posting this now but i was so sure thats what i wanted. Im just going to go week by week.

I have found bf so hard and so draining mentally and physically that i get real lows like this and then it passes.

I can empathise. I was feeling really low about breastfeeding last night, then today she has had a great feed and fell asleep and I just looked at her and said to OH how can I even think of stopping - though I know later on I might be saying how hard I find it. Its so blooming emotional.

awww beanie I've had a few rough days with biting, blood the works...

I just keep thinking one more day ... just one more day I think one of the reasons it is emotional is because it is hard so that we are encouraged to keep going

 

[Bloom]

Its nice to know others get bad days too.

At least i dont have teeth to contend with yet oh thats going to be another huge battle.

 

[Tadpole]

Aw hun, I've no advice re the stopping/not stopping. But it's hard either way, isn't it. to you anyway.

 

[Sandi4Paul]

Good luck on continueing, it must be a very hard decision to make, i will be weaning Logan in February when i leave him with my parents for a week whild OH and i have a holiday for the two of us, but this morning i thought "well i'll have to take the expresser to relieve myself, so maybe i might still have some supply when i get back to him to do one or two feeds a day...."

And i'm not even a libra!

Sandi

 

[clarey]

I am glad I am not the only indecisive Libran then! lol

Its such a tough thing to make a decision about but I think you are doing the right thing taking it slowly, I have horrible low days/weeks where I almost stop, I posted recently about it, but somehow get past them like you have. I am kind of hoping Eva will make the decision for me but then I remember Valentines heartache when it happened to her......so I dunno either, lol